julio 30, 2008

superiority/inferiority

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become bothered by others ideas/beliefs/perceptions of myself as who I perceived myself to be which is not who I am in any way whatsoever

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that people actually wanted to be like me because of me being 'good' at stuff, therefore existing within and as ego of superiority that I hadn't faced until now




I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become bothered by others ideas/beliefs/perceptions of myself as who I perceived myself to be which is not who I am in any way whatsoever

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that people actually wanted to be like me because of me being 'good' at stuff, therefore existing within and as ego of superiority that I hadn't faced until now

I forgive myself that I have accetped and allowed myself to think ,believe and perceive myself as being superior to other beings that I deem as being inferior because of self confidence, not realizing that I exist within and as lack of self trust/self confidence, therefore experience these feelings and emotions towards people that are me, revealing me to myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from woman and girls because of my thought belief and perception that they are 'competing' against myself, specifically because of being defined as a woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as being a woman, therefore, having 'rivalry' with other women in my world.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as being my personality, my manners, ways of speaking, use of words etc


If orgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being 'copy cat' by another woman, because of me wanting to 'remain special'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe or perceive that I'm special in any way whatsoever


I forgive myself that i accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as sadness whenever someone experienced much jealousy or envy towards myself when I was little girl, because of seeing how girls 'envied' my apparent 'success' in school


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel weird with myself for always being able to get things done right in an easy way


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe or perceive that people are able to envy myself, not realizing that there's nothing to fear, nothing to feel 'attacked' by as w do not accept and allow myself to be defined by past definitions as personality and who I believed myself to be


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to experience much inner conflict while seeing someone is again 'paying too much attention' to myself


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to remember what 'mother' used to say whenever I experienced much sadness, pain and fear towards others that were feeling envious or jealous about me and my 'success' in life, though it made me 'strong'


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel superior while winning first place english spelling contest when I was 12

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel 'not good enough' when i first had second place in english spelling contest when I was younger

I forgive myself thatI have accepted and allowed mysefl to feel superior to others for always getting first places at school

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior because of being able to get grades easily at school

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to my 'past school experience' as being a 'constant' here as me, not realizing it's part of what I was, not me here anymore

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as superiority towards others because of deeming them 'too slow' therefore, me thinking/believing/perceivng myself as being able to 'grasp' things quicker and easier


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to always feel 'bad' or 'botherred' or experiencing 'inner conflict' by seeing the difficulty that others experienced to get 'right' what i got 'right' in a much quicker way than them


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think ,believe and perceive that superiority is who I am, not realizing that I'm here as one and equal, no superiority exists within me here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe or perceive myself as being 'ashamed' by anyone even thinking of comparing themselves to me


I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel awkward and believe that I always end up being 'too recognized' or 'too popular' whenever I do not want to be that


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe or perceive that someone/anyone is able to compare themselves to me, not realizing I do not exist as a definition, but as one and equal with everyone else therefore

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as comparison of myself towards other beings


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with a warm feeling inside and other feelings whenever I see someone is 'paying too much attention' on myself


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being 'too known/too noticed' not realizing that it comes from fear of being able to 'influence others' without awareness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having conditioned my expression in order to be a 'role model' for others, thinking, believing and perceiving I am able to influence them in a 'good way'


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe or perceive that I'm even able to be distinguished/defined by a group of words as adjectives and nouns that could define me in any way whatsoever

I am undefinable

I exist as all as one and equal here, therefore, no separation exists with anyone/anything within this existence


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being 'an example to follow' not realizing that if I stand as all as one as equal, then I exist as here, as everyone else, no need to 'follow' or 'be followed' in any way whatsoever


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I still am defined by 'attributes' of the mind as the personality I think, believe and perceive myself to be


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that one is able to be 'more than any other person' or compare themselves to anyone


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to always get uncomfortable by being placed as 'example to follow' by teachers or any other person


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having everything done as it 'must be done' without getting recognition because of fear of being 'envied' by others, being taken as 'superior'



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for having compared myself to other people in school or anywhere else, always seeing what I had that they didn't have or weren't so I could feel superior or inferior, existing in continuous separation within and as perceptions of the mind


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my 'strength' as dominance, as that which I think/believe/perceive makes me 'different and unique' to everyone else, making me an 'outstanding being' that was as much a curse as much as a gift at times.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'throw shit at others' whenever I had the opportunity to do so, because of me thinking, believing and perceiving that in that way, I could stand as in a 'superior position' if this ever happened.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being taken as arrogant the moment I don't speak in a 'lower/high pitched' tone of voice, because of always having communicated towards others in such a voice in order to not be perceived as 'arrogant'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself as 'arrogant' whenever I speak in normal tone of voice, and not using the 'low pitched' voice to seem more gentle/nice/friendly towards others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe, perceive that I have to be more gentle in order to not be perceived as arrogant by others, not realizing these are MY perceptions at the moment of seeing me in video

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear 'losing' my 'gentleness' within and as the way I speak or express myself whenever I stop using different tonalities to express and communicate to others

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to separate me from women in general, because of fearing women being jealous of me for getting along easily with men in the past

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to feel more 'confident' than other woman or any other man that I knew/met therefore thinking, believing and perceiving that I could get advantage from that to get what I wanted


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire being a strong woman so I could stand up and not be anything less that what I allowed myself to be, not realizing that this came from the perception and belief that there exists inferior beings that are weak

I am as one as equal, therefore, there exists no separation of me towards anything/anyone in this existence


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to think believe or perceive myself to be as a 'good example' towards others throughout my whole life experience


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others for 'lacking confidence'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge anyone's expression, including my own

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that there are people that are flawless' not realizing it is all preprogrammed and manifested in such a way to create polarity within this world.

julio 24, 2008

trash the pain

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel some kind of 'weakness' inside me, not realizing that I am not able to be weakened or depleted, I am here, and all weakness sensation is mind feeling and emotion related.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior to other people while I'm riding in the bike or walking in the streets

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always having desired being 'different' to all beings around

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to complain for pain experienced in order to get a 'consolation' from mother or anyone else, that means, pity myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complain about pain in order to be noticed/get attention and therefore, feel better about it 'somehow'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my experience here as different from 'past days' not realizing that all is here, therefore, transcendence of this point is here


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give weight and power to thougths instead of stopping them in the moment as it is not who I am in any way whatsoever

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be annoyed by workers around the house

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I won't be able to 'make it' in school not realizing that I can make anything and be anything because I am all.. therefore I am able to express myself as stability anywhere in any moment no matter what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being 'addicted' to pain' in any way whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that pain is what I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to pain experienced in human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the pain experienced while menstruating

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that pain controls me while experiencing it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow pain to 'numb' me here, not realizing that it's all but a system manifestation according to the memories, pictures, thoughts and ideas I've connected to pain

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to directly link pain to menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I need comfort while experiencing pain, to 'go through it' I breath, I stand here, I am strength, I breathe through any pain manifested because of menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to remain 'thinking' about pain instead of unconditionally stopping it here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become 'used' to experiencing pain while being in period time/menstruation, therefore accepting and allowing it to be experienced while I'm going through it

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to complain about experiencing pain

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to complain about my own fuck ups

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysefl to use complain as a way to 'get what I want'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'complain' in order to get myself an 'easy way out' by others finding a solution for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complain in hope of getting answers to what I'm experiencing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link a headache to the fact that I am menstruation, therefore thinking believing and perceiving that headaches are 'normal' while menstruating, not realizing pain is system manifestation, is not who I am in any way whatsoever. I am life, I do not accept and allow pain manifestations within and as my human physical body

I stop all thoughts related to pain. I breathe and walk through it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive that pain is connected to the experience of living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe or perceive that pain is an experience of life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive

I walk and breathe through pain until it is done/gone


Fuick my father just broke the expresso glass deposit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be experiencing inner anger at the moment lol

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel a burning sensation inside me by knowing he broke this

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate my sister for those three seconds she hesitated in saying what my father had broken

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within my human physical body towards the broken glass noise I heard. ok I breath I am here

julio 23, 2008

self preservation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the aging of the human physical body, defining me as 'time' as something that depletes the body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting 'old' from the perspective of losing 'abilities' that young people have and that are apparently 'lost' as time goes by, not realizing that I direct me here, I stop all aging as aging exists only as the mind defined by time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being 'well-nourished' therefore, being able to 'deplete' faster as my human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the 'older' you get the more 'depleted' you get

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever fear drinking coffee, fearing calcium wouldn't be correctly absorbed by muscle and bone tissue, therefore creating 'osteoporosis'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly live in fear of 'getting diseases' because of the experiences about diseases I've seen in older people such as my grandmother my whole life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that smoking creates lung cancer and aging of the skin, not realizing that are but 'common beliefs' within and as the system of the world as the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must 'preserve' my human physical body to remain young and healthy as what i experience myself to be now

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire/want and require to be 'healthy' in order to be 'stable' here, therefore,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define stability within and as the need of being 'healthy' within and as the human physical body, not realizing that I am not defined by my human physical body but only as the breath of life here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the kind or quality of food that I eat will define my existence within and as my human physical body, not realizing that it is complete separation from what i eat as me, no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from 'junk food' as that which I perceive that isn't 'good' for my human physical body, therefore avoiding/rejecting to consume it in fear of it doing something 'wrong' inside my body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that nutrition and the meals we consume determine our experience here, not realizing that all meals and all that exists here supports the human physical body, therefore

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consuming/eating certain meals in fear of them not being 'supportive' for my human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, belive and perceive that body shall be preserved in a 'mint' state, in order to be eternally 'young' as that which is preferred within this world, within this social system we live in currently

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the idea of being healthy to that of wan to look 'good' and 'healthy' in order to feel good and experience myself comfortably here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my existence here by being 'healthy' and 'good looking', not realizing that is complete separation and complete submission to a picture presentation of myself towards others. I am here, I express myself here, I live here as me as the breath of life

to be continued

twoday

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react towards my father's comment on him wanting my mother to stay at home all time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowd mself to react towards any male's 'macho-machism' expression, trying to impose his will on another woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react, once again, while seeing some man hurting his dog with a chain... fuck I haven't gotten over it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get pissed off just by hearing the words everyone around here speak, not being aware of what their thought patterns are, what they are revealing and exposing about themselves while talking without awareness, not realizing that I still fall into the trap as well

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire not being recognized as a 'woman' or 'man' while riding a bike to avoid any judgments or ideas on people that watch, trying not to feed their mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think that women have not good 'driving/riding' abilities

I forgive myself that I have acceptd and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must 'ride' like a man so prove that women can 'do it' as well

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must prove that I am a woman, that I am powerful and that I can do things as good as a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must be as strong as a man to prove oneness and equality between sex definitions, not realizing that I have to prove nothing as I am here as all as one and equal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to care what others perceive me, as being a male or female, and their thoughts on how they will 'treat me' accordingly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowd myself to fear having been 'installed' some 'white light constructs' in that skio machine

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I do have the 'superknowledge' thus, creates separation from the understanding that others have towawards it all

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to submit myself to a process such as the skio machine withouth having awareness of how deep they could 'control' or 'alter myself' without having a 'oneness and equality' perspective

julio 22, 2008

Men'struehate forEVEr

Finally here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman within this world

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that Eve is the first woman in existence as what she represents within the Adam and Eve story

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that we had to pay for having deceiving man to take 'the forbidden fruit' as the apple of 'evil'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that Eve, as representation of female archetype, deceived Man into the 'original sin' therefore being the reason why history has blamed females as being responsible for ‘the fall’ of humanity in front of ‘god’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that by being a female we are bounded to reproduce and be 'creators' as bearers of life inside while a child is being formed inside the uterus of the female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that we were the ones that took humanity away from paradise because of the 'deceiving' of the fruit from the 'tree of knowledge'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be subconsciously manipulated by biblical story such as Adam and Eve as the beginning and origin of male and female human physical bodies in this existence and as the origin point of humanity’s fall.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever feel 'inferior' to men because of being ‘told’ as the Adam and Eve story as having been created from a rib coming from Adam, meaning, being 'a part' of him, therefore being dependent on the existence of man to exist in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being a female meant being bound to another man with whom we could fulfill our sexuality towards reproduction and ‘the walking of life’ and all that it entails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the archetype of the 'submissive' one in human beings as being within and as a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to subconsciously feel guilty for taking humanity into mortality, eternal ‘doom’ by eating off of the tree of knowledge and encouraging Adam to do the same

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman, the 'worried one' the ‘woe man’ thinking believing and perceiving that nature as a woman meant sensitivity and caring towards the family construct as mothers caring for children while male worked for sustain

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive that the male-female relationship had to necessarily exist within this earth in order to keep the procreation of our kind, and also as fulfillment of our existence within and as this world

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define the woman essence as being 'sensitive, submissive, caring, delicate' and the male as the 'strength, dominant, ruthless' beings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive, that the rule of life was to grow up, find a man with whom I could reproduce and maintain the generational line as human beings

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women 'suffer' in this world for being 'delicate, soft, weak' because of how it has all been portrayed from the Adam and Eve story

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to fight for 'women's place' within this world, not realizing that I was accepting the inferiority of women by allowing me to fight for equality within and as social established roles for females

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to believe and stick to the 'social roles' defined according to what a woman must be and how she must exist within a society as behaviors, manners, ways of speaking, walking, and any other action within a defined society construct

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women must keep their 'femininity' because it's what makes her 'different' from a man, what makes her 'special and delicate' as the mystery that has been portrayed towards women throughout history of mankind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that because of me being a woman, I wouldn't be able to get to be a 'great artist' because I saw all were mostly males

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that females lacked strength in expression in every way, therefore that I had to make myself more 'male' in order to compensate that which I saw as 'not part of my nature' for being in a female human physical body.

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define 'femininity =vulnerability' because of how I perceived woman as being soft and delicate and able to be easily ‘harmed’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and constrict myself to a female or male human physical body, defining me by physicality instead of realizing that I am here as all as one and equal

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior to men because I couldn't play what I perceived as being 'male games' because I feared of getting hit in my breasts or any other part of my body that I deemed as being 'more delicate' than male's human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the woman had to cover her body in order to keep her 'sanctity' her 'innocence and purity' as defined, perceived and limited by the social role of a ‘female’ in society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that the woman is the bearer of the original sin because of her deceiving Adam, therefore having to endure pains and suffering during menstruation and giving birth to a child

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel damned/enslaved within and as the human physical body for having to endure menstruation every month

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define menstruation as an injustice and inequity of nature because of men not having to endure physical pains, emotional chaos as all that menstruation entails within and as females of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my nature as being a woman because of being able to 'get pregnant' every month, getting an 'opportunity/availability' to get pregnant and create life inside by being having sexual intercourse with a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me by fertility cycles within and as a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that in exchange of women giving birth to children, men had to do the 'hard work' in order to create a 'balance point' for women having endured the physical pain and the bearing of a child during nine months until birth time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define slavery as having to experience menstruation every single month for few days, creating me all sorts of emotional shifts and physical pains

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that while menstruation I am a 'delicate, soft, sensitive' being and therefore, not being able to do and take action in life as the rest of the month

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever fear not getting the menstruation because it would indicate a pregnancy, an unexpected pregnancy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as 22000 points as the primary construct design for menstruation to exist and manifest within this world, all which I have accepted and allowed as the manifestation of female and male human physical bodies within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the primary separation existing between being defined as a female expression or a male expression within this world and this existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that getting the menstruation for the first time meant 'becoming a woman' thus meaning I could then be able to reproduce myself and give birth to another being

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that menstruation was the 'price to pay' for having the 'ability' (evil tie) of giving birth to a children every single month, the 'miracle' of life

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to be disgusted by images of women giving birth to a child, because of all the blood, the pain and the cry that it involves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of a 'menstruation cycle' defining my days, my life and my existence within and as a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I am enslaved to menstruation, as something I cannot stop, and cannot control, and cannot schedule

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to desire being a male to not have to experience the menstruation as being a woman, therefore getting pains for resisting myself to exist within and as a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to get a sense of 'hopelessness' when knowing how many times I would have to ovulate, therefore, experience the menstruation in an average woman life span

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that men would have to 'carry' the weight along with me while me experiencing myself in menstruation, making or wanting them to 'pity' me and have 'special considerations' to not 'hurt me or bother me' while having the menstruation cycle

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that menstruation was a drag whenever I wanted to have sexual relationship and I was having my period

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being a woman had its very 'nice' privileges, but that as a 'balance point' we had to experience menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the concept of menstruation to pain, suffering, drag, repetitiveness, cycles, femininity, burden, pain in the ass.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the emotional instability while experiencing menstruation or before, is a punishment, a drag, suffering and extensively uncomfortable to experience

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the idea of being 'emotionally instable' by the idea of being within a 'specific point' in my menstrual cycle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the menstrual cycle as my life cycle, as that to which I have to 'stick to' because of allowing myself to think, believe and perceive that it 'rules my existence as a woman'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that the life of a woman is defined by the 'menstrual cycle' because of how it regulates hormonal functions affecting, defining the existence of emotions, feelings and thoughts within and as the female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever feel 'ashamed' or 'dirty' by experiencing the menstruation cycle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect any thought of 'depression, submission' or any other emotional instability as being part of the 'menstrual cycle'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman had to get 'special considerations' for the nature of woman's human physical body as being more delicate, soft, weak, specially while experiencing the menstruation cycle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the existence of a woman according to the menstruation cycle, defining a 'woman' as the person who gets to menstruate and therefore, being able to give birth to a child

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'change' my experience within myself while existing within and as the menstruation cycle, thinking believing and perceiving that it 'affected' all of my body functions making me emotionally instable, desiring sex, or getting food cravings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the reality of a woman in this existence as being 'painful, suffering' by having to bare the existence of menstruation, submission to males and the giving birth to a child

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive females are 'the weak sex'

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to 'fight' to get women to be something 'better/stronger' than men because of the much believed idea/belief/perception of men being stronger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my existence within this world as a woman as being something 'nice' because of thinking women as 'the beauty beings', as those who could manipulate men because of our physical 'enchant'-charm, physicality or picture presentation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I suffer and experience extensive pains while menstruating, not realizing it is all mind's perception, therefore, not real. Menstruation is real, the pain, the suffering, the emotional shifts exists as my acceptance and allowance, not realizing that is all mind perception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever feel 'constricted' by having the menstruation cycle, therefore, thinking believing and perceiving that I couldn't fully develop myself in my normal/every day activities

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman had to exist in a man's life to make him aware of the 'wonders of creation', the 'sensitive' side of life, to grow along with him

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a man needed a woman in order to fulfill himself, and therefore thinking that a woman needed a man to fulfill herself and create in order to fulfill each other's 'human nature'

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that 'human nature' is, as women, being with a man, and vice versa, never realizing that it is all imposed roles and designs within the system of how this world works and moves according to sex definitions of 'male' and 'female'

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to fear the time when period was about to arrive because of feeling that the 'doom' of being a woman would be near

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that getting the period, defined me as a 'complete woman' meaning, a female human physical body fulfilling and activating it's 'goal or purpose' in life

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable while being with another man when having the menstruation, because of feeling restricted, constricted, and not being able to 'fully express' while being in period

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to hate the emotional shifts experienced while menstruating because it created much internal conflict and external conflict with those in my world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always fear having to do something that requires 'more physical effort' while having my period, because of me thinking, believing and perceiving that menstruation is a time to 'keep myself in rest' and not force myself into normal every day life

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to use my menstruation cycle as a justification for emotional shifts, experiencing pains in the ovaries and any other kind of 'instability' experienced

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the nature of being a woman, was that as an 'inferior' being, therefore being enslaved and controlled by men in this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women were 'doomed' for having to experience the menstrual cycle -bearing of a kid inside, and males didn't, therefore living in pain and suffering as the defined injustice of this nature

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define woman as being vulnerable because of what the reproductive action entails, opening the vagina to be 'penetrated' therefore, women being the barer, the receiver-receptor instead of the one that penetrates as that role of being a male

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define penetration as being ‘the active role’ of a male within a female’s human physical body

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that pain and suffering in women was but part of the 'sensitive' nature of woman, not realizing that it is all created by the submissive role in which women have accepted and allowed to exist within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that being a woman means being a slave to menstrual cycles, to having to give birth to a children in order to 'fulfill' the primary role of a woman in life

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think that a male was the counterpart of my existence, therefore, seeking the 'counterpart' of myself in order to 'fulfill' my existence as a woman within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women are easily abused, raped and victimized because of being 'weak and vulnerable' and not able to defend themselves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define male's penis as that which 'we don't have' as that which represents 'power, strength' which I perceived and allowed myself to think that made males dominant, strong and controllers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that a man controls the sexual physical act because of thinking believing and perceiving women as only a 'receptor -receiver' of something that enters and is able to enter as deep, slow, soft, hard as the male desires to do so

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel abused in thought while experiencing sexual act because of the nature of sexual act in itself, as allowing my female human physical body to be penetrated by a male's human physical body within and as the connection vagina - penis that is created while the sex encounter takes place

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I had 'no power' to stop the physical suffering and pain while experiencing menstruation, because of me accepting and allowing this as 'part of menstrual cycle' as something natural that had and must be endured

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define woman as actually being stronger than men because we can endure physical pains and sufferings within menstruation and also while giving birth to a child.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define the nature of woman as being 'innocent' and being able to be 'fooled' because of the Adam and Eve story by the female being able to be fooled by the snake to eat from the tree of knowledge fruit.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself as the Adam and Eve story to think believe and perceive that women are responsible for fear of death and the manifestation of death within and as this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as the Adam and Eve story to feel 'responsible' for having doomed both males and females to mortality and therefore, being out casted from paradise

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive as the Adam an Eve story, that women are easily deceivable and fooled, therefore being weak while facing 'the evil' represented by the snake and the death that taking the fruit entailed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women existed as the ones that had to 'praise' men for its strength and power and dominance, accepting and allowing women to exist within the submissive, passive role in the 'relationship' between both genres

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that both male and women were punished by having eating off the tree of knowledge therefore being 'cursed and punished' by having to do hard labor as males and experiencing extensive pain in childbirth as females.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that, as females, we define ourselves as 'possible/potential' mothers thinking, believing and perceiving that giving birth to a child is part of the woman's life experience in this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to place women as the 'victims' in society for accepting and allowing women to exist as the 'inferiority' that has been placed and defined as the woman role in this system, this society.

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman had the right to be treated with more 'sensitivity' and 'care' by men because of the idea, belief and perception of men being more 'rough, rude, strong and clumsy’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define men as being clumsy, slow, rough, rude, strong and brutal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from male expressions within this world by the nature of human physical bodies

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that males and females are different from males because of the reproductive features as sex system within the human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that females depend on males and vice versa because of needing to 'reproduce' and create more human beings in existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women are 'demons' because of taking men into the doom of 'enchantment' and 'romance'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to portray the female human physical body as an object of desire for men to ‘obtain or possess’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the female human physical body as being vulnerable, delicate and sensitive because of apparently having more 'sensitivity' receptors in the skin than men, therefore 'feeling more' than men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the pains that I experience while having the menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that having the period means not being 'desired' by a man to have sexual encounter with

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as that which must experience sexual desires towards the opposite or same sex

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by a man because of having period

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire taking off my matrix in order to stop having to menstruate every single month of my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing the period because that would mean I'm a woman no more because of not being able to reproduce anymore

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the idea of menopause with withering as a woman, losing fertility, therefore losing the definition as ‘woman’ being life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that after menopause, life has no meaning as a woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that having the period is disgusting because of what it entails as the blood running down through the vagina for some days without being able to control or administrate it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I'm controlled by menstruation as I cannot decide when or how to experience it, meaning, I cannot control it in any way whatsoever

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for being a woman and having to experience the menstruation cycle without any 'choice' to hide or stop it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive myself as being uncomfortable within my own skin while being in periods

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having no disturbance, no activity and no bothering in any way while experiencing periods because of considering it a 'sensitive, painful' moment of the month as being a woman while experiencing menstruation

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to long for the moment when menstruation stops, not realizing that this thought keeps me enslaved with a desire or longing for something to happen in the future

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to just breath and be here while experiencing the menstruation cycle, instead existing in the mind allowing myself to pay attention to pain and suffering in body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled and manipulated by the pain and suffering of certain menstruation cycles experienced

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the beginning of menstruation in a female human physical body indicated the end of childhood and the beginning of womanhood

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to 'phases of life' within a human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that females are submissive in their nature because of being 'the weak ones' and therefore, not taking self direction and submitting to the 'strong sex' such as the definition that exists towards males in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women are dependent on their menstruation cycle, therefore not living life here in the moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be preoccupied within the mind when it's about time to experience menstruation cycles instead of breathing and living in the moment as the breath here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever fear being noticed by others that I'm experiencing menstrual pains or menstruation, fear of being ashamed or embarrassed by it

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to fear childbirth pains

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to endure a natural childbirth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become depressive whenever I experience my menstrual cycle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever experience anger and frustration at the experience of menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the idea of menstruation to that of 'wasting a possible life' every month

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think believe and perceive that I am 'wasting life' every time I get menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dominated by the 'biological' clock within women which indicates the ideal times to get pregnant and give birth to a child

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being infertile as a woman with desires to reproduce

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that the moment you get menstruation, you must behave more like a 'lady' than a 'child'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever be and exist within and as repression for being 'the weak sex' the one that 'bleeds every month' therefore, stepping in a lower position than men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever desire 'killing' my own femininity and sexuality in order to be free

I forgive myself, as a Muslim woman, for having accepted and allowed myself to repress myself inhibiting the showing of my body by covering it all completely, and ‘believing’ in the idea that this makes me beautiful

I forgive myself that I as a muslim woman have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I must cover my whole body in order to hide who I am as a woman, my female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear of being attacked by men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone at night in the streets going by groups of men in fear of being attacked, abused or raped

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a woman, to fear remaining the only women in any place where there are only men, thinking believing and perceiving that it is 'dangerous' and I might get 'harmed'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire suppressing and hiding my feminine human physical body in fear of getting verbal abuse towards the look and appearance of my human physical body as female picture presentation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in constant fear towards men while walking on the streets because of them looking at my human physical body with no shame or regret

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to feel as an object, a sex object for men that exists only as a 'bag' as a 'container' as the 'passive role' within and as the sexual encounter with a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that men are but the 'dominators' of women because of their 'active' role within the sexual relationship, therefore men being the ones that are naturally able to 'rape' a woman and not the other way around

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever feel 'powerless' against a perceived 'male strength and dominance'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman, being beaten to death by another man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being submissive in a relationship with a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be enslaved by a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be enslaved by the role of being a woman in society thinking believing and perceiving that I must 'fulfill' those activities in order to be a 'real woman'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define femininity according to the 'length of the hair'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a female human physical body for the organs and the secondary sexual organs it develops while growing up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself according to the manifestation of other women's human physical body or towards the male human physical body

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed by having a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to limit self within and as a female human physical body, adjusting its nature to the needs and desires, laws, traditions and impositions of institutions, laws and religions towards the 'image' and 'presentation' of a woman within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive that women are limited and can only go 'so far' because of not being able to 'reach' what apparently only men can

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women were no good in ‘spatial perception'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe, perceive that woman only care about gossiping with other women

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women require to be with other women in order to talk and 'understand' their woman expression in this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to judge woman that went to the bathroom with other women

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women are media objects, advertising objects in sexual representation (repression) in order to fulfill man's needs and desires of sex and power within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive as a man that a woman is here in order to fulfill men's needs desires and wants within and as the sex construct of this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define women as being 'second' place in humanity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire being 'asexual' in order to not have to define me according to either one of the poles that exist within humanity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive that I have to stick to the rules and roles designed for women within a society

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that 'only men' could do certain tasks which I deemed as 'difficult or requiring physical strength' that females apparently do not own, therefore, limiting myself as my human physical abilities within this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman could only go 'so far' and that there were things that women simply couldn't just 'fulfill' or accomplish

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that there were specific tasks and activities designed and created for both genres existing as human race within this world, therefore, allowing the enslavement within and as a 'role' as woman, or a 'role' as male

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive woman as having to fulfill existence as 'beauty manifestations' within and of this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to submit my existence to fulfill a man's desire to possess a woman

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being with a man in a relationship meant playing the 'sweet beauty' woman in order to fulfill the role and expectations of what a woman is and should be within this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with the idea of having to be 'beautiful' in order to be liked by men

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to judge my human physical body's appearance and face in order to 'fit' into categories of being 'beautiful' to be accepted and liked by men of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman had to be 'beautiful’ and fit' in order to get a man to fulfill herself with

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself as a woman to be enslaved by the 'primordial function' of being a woman as having to give birth to a child and create a family

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being a woman without being a mother is a waste of woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that experiencing menstruation every single month and never having kids is a waste of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to be defined by menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as woman to be defined according to the usual menstrual pains and the suffering that this process entails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever worry and desire stopping menstruation so I wouldn't have to suffer anymore

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice myself in order to fulfill men's ideal woman perception in order to 'fulfill' his desires and needs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I needed to 'enhance' my 'woman features' in order to be liked, accepted, desired and wanted by men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman fear being rejected by men because of 'not being good enough'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman, fearing being continuously checked upon, criticized, judged and watched by men that desire sex and desire fulfilling their sexual images by watching any kind of woman of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever feel disgusted, abused by being the object for men to watch

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to ever desire being the object to watch, to be praised, liked and accepted by men in order to fulfill the role of 'being a woman' in this society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that the more men that liked me, the more 'woman' I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to ever desire fulfilling 'the ideal, perfect image' of what a woman must be within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think believe and perceive that I'm not feminine enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a woman according to the activities and ways of expression that a woman must have within this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I needed to enhance myself with make up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman with make up looks more 'beautiful' therefore more desirable and liked by men

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to define my existence according to men's needs and desires of what a woman must be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive that women are inferior to men because of 'mental' capacities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think believe and perceive that I must be 'accessible' to men in order to fulfill their dreams and desires therefore, being liked and accepted by men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to show up my female human physical body in order to show what a woman can 'offer' to men in order to have sex and get a relationship, be liked and accepted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined according to the idea of being a woman, therefore, having to experience sex with a man in order to ‘be a true a woman’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the status of having sex or not having sex yet with a man as a definition of who I am in this society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that being a woman actually gets me to be in a 'comfortable' situation and position within society by getting some ‘benefits and considerations’ as going first or getting seats

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that men have to be 'gentle' towards women in any situation, because 'that's what society tells us to be and do'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I fear being alone with unknown men in a same place because I perceive myself as being inferior, weaker and not being able to defend myself from them

I forgive myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I had to suppress my sexuality and only men were able to explicitly expose their sexual needs and desires

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to fear being portrayed as a witch for the perceived 'sixth sense' ability that women have within this world and was ‘misunderstood’ through a certain period of time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to be feared because of being able to bleed for days and never die of it, therefore men creating the idea of women as being 'abnormal' and 'evil'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women were the ones 'more attached' to the son/daughter because of having carried the child for nine months

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive as a pregnant woman that I am no longer desirable for a man, because I am no longer 'vacant' to procreated

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive as a pregnant woman that men don't desire me anymore for being bearing a child

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being pregnant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the ability of being able to 'get pregnant'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman is superior to man because of her ability to produce milk to feed babies

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman think, believe or perceive that there exists an 'ideal' of what a women should be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that wearing skirt makes me more of a woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman and therefore, being able to wear skirts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I lose my 'femininity' while using pants and short hair

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that short hair is only for men to wear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to ever fear not being 'good enough' for a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire portraying myself as a 'strong woman' in order to change men's idea of woman being submissive and weak

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to submit to extensive exercise, diet, pills, plastic surgeries or any other kind of 'beauty enhancers' in order to be liked, accepted, desired by men to have a relationship and experience sex

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Christian woman to think believe and perceive that I must cover my head to enter church because of hair being the symbol of sensuality and femininity

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must attract men in order to exist in a relationship, therefore, having someone to reproduce and establish with in the system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to my liking and desire of men within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman's human physical body had to be perfect in order to be liked, accepted and desired by men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I need a man to protect myself, to take care of me, to feel secure by having a 'stronger force' beside me

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel more safe while being with a man around people

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define me according to being someone’s' girlfriend, wife, mother, daughter, and any other role in society that is strictly made and created for women to fulfill or be defined as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to limit myself thinking believing and perceiving that I am limited by only so many roles within society and this world that I am able to fulfill as a woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman as having to 'fulfill' roles and certain 'feminine purposes' in life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that being a woman is something 'special' because of being able to give birth to a child

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women are able to 'haunt' a male and make them do whatever a woman wants them to do, not realizing that it entails control and the desire of power over someone else

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to reduce men to being sex-driven beings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I must be the 'man's companion' in life, and accepting him to be the 'main character', the one that 'leads' and 'directs'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to being a woman, therefore, getting a 'feminine name' that would distinguish me as a woman within and of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman, therefore having to be more 'delicate and reserved' than men that are allowed to be open, blunt and strong

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that a man is able to be portrayed naked but that a woman had to hide her genitalia within and as old paintings and images through history of human kind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that woman led men to sin, therefore that we had to 'pay' for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to be portrayed by the roman catholic church as 'first sinners' within and of this world in human history for having lead 'Adam' to sin and therefore taking 'responsibility' for 'the Fall'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define female expression as having to be graceful, delicate, soft, reserved, submissive and 'defense less' therefore accepting the existence of a 'need' for a 'counter part' that would be able to fulfill/complete what a 'woman' is missing/lacking in attributes and features as a human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a woman as being able to be a prostitute, therefore, judging a woman's use and expression towards sex

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself as a woman to feel having being born in an inferior position in society by defining me according to a female human physical body having to fulfill a female role within it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive as a woman that I must be 'successful' in order to be recognized and admired in a male driven society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive as a woman that I must place the picture perfect presentation towards others in order to be accepted and recognized and be successful in this world

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to having to be 'worthy' and 'of value' because of how we are usually perceived in this world as second degree human beings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to define me according tot he worth and value that is placed to a woman in any kind of social activity or role defined for a woman to fulfill

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman must be 'loved, appreciated' by others in order to take full recognition of myself

I forgive myself as a woman for having accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I had to actually consider measuring my worth and value according to others' ideas, beliefs, perceptions of what a woman must be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to desire being 'admired' by others either males or women because of the development of the role as a woman within this society.

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to feel 'privileged' in society for being a woman because of having physical features that men do not have and that make women 'special' and more accepted within a 'male-driven society'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive myself as a woman and defining me according to the desire of having a baby, to give birth to a child, to create/procreate life of another being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to desire being recognized and appreciated by having accomplished the task of giving birth to a child, being a mother and a wife within and of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to being able to 'be more intuitive' than a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to being able to 'be more perceptive' than a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to 'being more analytical' than men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to existing in constant worry and concern of how others view and perceive me

I forgive myself as a woman that have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I am able to endure the pain experienced while menstruation because of the idea that 'I am preparing way' for the final moment when I will bare a baby inside my uterus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that enduring menstruation pains 'it's worth it' because of being able to one day have a baby and ‘become a mother’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive as a woman that menstruation is cool because 'it purifies' and 'cleanses'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that having the menstruation in this life is actually 'worth it' once you get to have a baby out of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that being able to endure pain an suffering while menstruation actually makes you a 'pain resister', so then childbirth wouldn't be so 'painful' as it usually is, because of body being 'used to extreme pains' as uterus' contractions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to fear having a baby by caesarean in section

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to desire having a baby by caesarean in section so I don't have to experience all the pain and suffering that natural childbirth brings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to feel 'special' because of being able to feed your own baby by producing milk in the breasts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think believe and perceive that my role exists within and as the 'act' of giving love to others such as husband, kids as the 'loving female role 'that exists within this world and reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive myself as grateful for being a woman for having the 'duty' 'opportunity' to raise and take care of my own kids

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a 'proud' woman according to being able to give birth and raise kids by my own

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to endure the pain, the hostility and the rejection of males within this society because of 'the way things are'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being a woman is something I must be proud of

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to the 'abilities' that males are perceived as not having in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive myself as a woman according to my relationship with other women in my world that take 'women's roles' in society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the existence of a woman exists according to the existence of a man beside her

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman is only of 'worth and value' once she has kids and is married to a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think believe and perceive that 'losing virginity' means losing purity, losing chastity therefore, accepting and allowing to be rejected by society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I must lose my virginity in order to fit today's role of woman in society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value and worth to myself as a woman only when another man/person recognizes me as being a 'woman' in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a woman as being a 'real woman' whenever she features well proportioned body features such as breasts, waist, hips and bum for a woman to be desired and liked and accepted in this society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to fear of men's power and greed in this world towards having and owning/possessing women sexually as mere objects

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman think believe that it is ok for a man to have many wife’s, but not for a woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to submit to society's will and rules of how a woman must hide herself and her sexuality in order to be a 'good mannered woman' within this world

I forgive myself as a woman that I have accepted and allowed myself to endure pain, molestation, abuse and rape from men because of perceiving that I am not able to stand up and defend myself, and no more allow any kind of abuse towards female expressions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think that our role is, 'by nature', inferior to the role of man within this world, not realizing oneness and equality exists as who we really are

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to stick to traditions, beliefs and perceptions that religions have made up onto women of this world in order to keep them in inferiority towards men in society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that we have more 'obligations/responsibilities' to achieve than actual rights

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that there's no way to change the world system in which the woman is portrayed as being inferior to a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that because I am a woman, I must allow men to stand up first, because they are ‘stronger' than woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman accept the 'control and abuse' imposed to women because of being 'inferior/weak/not good enough' existing in comparison according to the role of males within this world and society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman, must take complete and full responsibility for kids because for having carried them 9 months in the womb, not realizing that I am avoiding males to take equal responsibility as me for having procreated kids together

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman don't have to work and male has to do it all to bring food to the table

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive myself as a woman, therefore, existing in 'disadvantage' of job opportunities within this world to aspire to 'higher positions'

I forgive myself as a woman that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must fight for the right to be equally good/effective/strong as a male role in this society and in this world

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I'm an 'object of worth and value' and therefore, I'm allowed to be exigent in order to get what I want/need/desire as the ego of the woman within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman have to 'fight/push harder' in order to get that which males get more easily

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think believe and perceive that I must 'defeat' another man in order to be recognized and accepted and be of worth and value within this society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that giving birth to a child is something that gives 'satisfaction' and 'fulfillment' of the role as a women made to be a mother in this world

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the image of a 'goddess' of this world, therefore linking the idea of women to concepts of beauty, perfection, being flawless, delicate, sensitive and powerful' in order to be able to control other women or men within this world

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must give the impression of being 'powerful, successful, strong and confident' in order to not be defined as being submissive and powerless in this male-driven society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that this is a male-driven society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to define me according to the role in sexual relationships that I must 'play' in order to give pleasure and satisfaction to the male counterpart

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to submit myself to the idea of being a woman in and of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that taking medication or smoking weed would ease the pain and suffering experienced while having period

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that man some of these justifications are bullshit, lol

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be worried about other's ideas/beliefs/perceptions of what a woman should be and exist within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to take the submissive role within a relationship by being 'the one that waits' the one that is there to support the man, instead of existing in a one and equal agreement of equal self support and assistances as one and equals with any other woman or male within this world