julio 22, 2008

Men'struehate forEVEr

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman within this world

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that Eve is the first woman in existence as what she represents within the Adam and Eve story

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that we had to pay for having deceiving man to take 'the forbidden fruit' as the apple of 'evil'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that Eve, as representation of female archetype, deceived Man into the 'original sin' therefore being the reason why history has blamed females as being responsible for ‘the fall’ of humanity in front of ‘god’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that by being a female we are bounded to reproduce and be 'creators' as bearers of life inside while a child is being formed inside the uterus of the female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that we were the ones that took humanity away from paradise because of the 'deceiving' of the fruit from the 'tree of knowledge'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be subconsciously manipulated by biblical story such as Adam and Eve as the beginning and origin of male and female human physical bodies in this existence and as the origin point of humanity’s fall.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever feel 'inferior' to men because of being ‘told’ as the Adam and Eve story as having been created from a rib coming from Adam, meaning, being 'a part' of him, therefore being dependent on the existence of man to exist in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being a female meant being bound to another man with whom we could fulfill our sexuality towards reproduction and ‘the walking of life’ and all that it entails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the archetype of the 'submissive' one in human beings as being within and as a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to subconsciously feel guilty for taking humanity into mortality, eternal ‘doom’ by eating off of the tree of knowledge and encouraging Adam to do the same

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman, the 'worried one' the ‘woe man’ thinking believing and perceiving that nature as a woman meant sensitivity and caring towards the family construct as mothers caring for children while male worked for sustain

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive that the male-female relationship had to necessarily exist within this earth in order to keep the procreation of our kind, and also as fulfillment of our existence within and as this world

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define the woman essence as being 'sensitive, submissive, caring, delicate' and the male as the 'strength, dominant, ruthless' beings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive, that the rule of life was to grow up, find a man with whom I could reproduce and maintain the generational line as human beings

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women 'suffer' in this world for being 'delicate, soft, weak' because of how it has all been portrayed from the Adam and Eve story

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to fight for 'women's place' within this world, not realizing that I was accepting the inferiority of women by allowing me to fight for equality within and as social established roles for females

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to believe and stick to the 'social roles' defined according to what a woman must be and how she must exist within a society as behaviors, manners, ways of speaking, walking, and any other action within a defined society construct

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women must keep their 'femininity' because it's what makes her 'different' from a man, what makes her 'special and delicate' as the mystery that has been portrayed towards women throughout history of mankind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that because of me being a woman, I wouldn't be able to get to be a 'great artist' because I saw all were mostly males

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that females lacked strength in expression in every way, therefore that I had to make myself more 'male' in order to compensate that which I saw as 'not part of my nature' for being in a female human physical body.

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define 'femininity =vulnerability' because of how I perceived woman as being soft and delicate and able to be easily ‘harmed’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and constrict myself to a female or male human physical body, defining me by physicality instead of realizing that I am here as all as one and equal

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior to men because I couldn't play what I perceived as being 'male games' because I feared of getting hit in my breasts or any other part of my body that I deemed as being 'more delicate' than male's human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the woman had to cover her body in order to keep her 'sanctity' her 'innocence and purity' as defined, perceived and limited by the social role of a ‘female’ in society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that the woman is the bearer of the original sin because of her deceiving Adam, therefore having to endure pains and suffering during menstruation and giving birth to a child

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel damned/enslaved within and as the human physical body for having to endure menstruation every month

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define menstruation as an injustice and inequity of nature because of men not having to endure physical pains, emotional chaos as all that menstruation entails within and as females of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my nature as being a woman because of being able to 'get pregnant' every month, getting an 'opportunity/availability' to get pregnant and create life inside by being having sexual intercourse with a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me by fertility cycles within and as a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that in exchange of women giving birth to children, men had to do the 'hard work' in order to create a 'balance point' for women having endured the physical pain and the bearing of a child during nine months until birth time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define slavery as having to experience menstruation every single month for few days, creating me all sorts of emotional shifts and physical pains

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that while menstruation I am a 'delicate, soft, sensitive' being and therefore, not being able to do and take action in life as the rest of the month

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever fear not getting the menstruation because it would indicate a pregnancy, an unexpected pregnancy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as 22000 points as the primary construct design for menstruation to exist and manifest within this world, all which I have accepted and allowed as the manifestation of female and male human physical bodies within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the primary separation existing between being defined as a female expression or a male expression within this world and this existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that getting the menstruation for the first time meant 'becoming a woman' thus meaning I could then be able to reproduce myself and give birth to another being

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that menstruation was the 'price to pay' for having the 'ability' (evil tie) of giving birth to a children every single month, the 'miracle' of life

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to be disgusted by images of women giving birth to a child, because of all the blood, the pain and the cry that it involves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of a 'menstruation cycle' defining my days, my life and my existence within and as a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I am enslaved to menstruation, as something I cannot stop, and cannot control, and cannot schedule

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to desire being a male to not have to experience the menstruation as being a woman, therefore getting pains for resisting myself to exist within and as a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to get a sense of 'hopelessness' when knowing how many times I would have to ovulate, therefore, experience the menstruation in an average woman life span

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that men would have to 'carry' the weight along with me while me experiencing myself in menstruation, making or wanting them to 'pity' me and have 'special considerations' to not 'hurt me or bother me' while having the menstruation cycle

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that menstruation was a drag whenever I wanted to have sexual relationship and I was having my period

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being a woman had its very 'nice' privileges, but that as a 'balance point' we had to experience menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the concept of menstruation to pain, suffering, drag, repetitiveness, cycles, femininity, burden, pain in the ass.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the emotional instability while experiencing menstruation or before, is a punishment, a drag, suffering and extensively uncomfortable to experience

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the idea of being 'emotionally instable' by the idea of being within a 'specific point' in my menstrual cycle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the menstrual cycle as my life cycle, as that to which I have to 'stick to' because of allowing myself to think, believe and perceive that it 'rules my existence as a woman'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that the life of a woman is defined by the 'menstrual cycle' because of how it regulates hormonal functions affecting, defining the existence of emotions, feelings and thoughts within and as the female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever feel 'ashamed' or 'dirty' by experiencing the menstruation cycle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect any thought of 'depression, submission' or any other emotional instability as being part of the 'menstrual cycle'

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman had to get 'special considerations' for the nature of woman's human physical body as being more delicate, soft, weak, specially while experiencing the menstruation cycle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the existence of a woman according to the menstruation cycle, defining a 'woman' as the person who gets to menstruate and therefore, being able to give birth to a child

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'change' my experience within myself while existing within and as the menstruation cycle, thinking believing and perceiving that it 'affected' all of my body functions making me emotionally instable, desiring sex, or getting food cravings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the reality of a woman in this existence as being 'painful, suffering' by having to bare the existence of menstruation, submission to males and the giving birth to a child

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive females are 'the weak sex'

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to 'fight' to get women to be something 'better/stronger' than men because of the much believed idea/belief/perception of men being stronger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my existence within this world as a woman as being something 'nice' because of thinking women as 'the beauty beings', as those who could manipulate men because of our physical 'enchant'-charm, physicality or picture presentation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I suffer and experience extensive pains while menstruating, not realizing it is all mind's perception, therefore, not real. Menstruation is real, the pain, the suffering, the emotional shifts exists as my acceptance and allowance, not realizing that is all mind perception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever feel 'constricted' by having the menstruation cycle, therefore, thinking believing and perceiving that I couldn't fully develop myself in my normal/every day activities

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman had to exist in a man's life to make him aware of the 'wonders of creation', the 'sensitive' side of life, to grow along with him

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a man needed a woman in order to fulfill himself, and therefore thinking that a woman needed a man to fulfill herself and create in order to fulfill each other's 'human nature'

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that 'human nature' is, as women, being with a man, and vice versa, never realizing that it is all imposed roles and designs within the system of how this world works and moves according to sex definitions of 'male' and 'female'

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to fear the time when period was about to arrive because of feeling that the 'doom' of being a woman would be near

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that getting the period, defined me as a 'complete woman' meaning, a female human physical body fulfilling and activating it's 'goal or purpose' in life

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable while being with another man when having the menstruation, because of feeling restricted, constricted, and not being able to 'fully express' while being in period

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to hate the emotional shifts experienced while menstruating because it created much internal conflict and external conflict with those in my world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always fear having to do something that requires 'more physical effort' while having my period, because of me thinking, believing and perceiving that menstruation is a time to 'keep myself in rest' and not force myself into normal every day life

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to use my menstruation cycle as a justification for emotional shifts, experiencing pains in the ovaries and any other kind of 'instability' experienced

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the nature of being a woman, was that as an 'inferior' being, therefore being enslaved and controlled by men in this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women were 'doomed' for having to experience the menstrual cycle -bearing of a kid inside, and males didn't, therefore living in pain and suffering as the defined injustice of this nature

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define woman as being vulnerable because of what the reproductive action entails, opening the vagina to be 'penetrated' therefore, women being the barer, the receiver-receptor instead of the one that penetrates as that role of being a male

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define penetration as being ‘the active role’ of a male within a female’s human physical body

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that pain and suffering in women was but part of the 'sensitive' nature of woman, not realizing that it is all created by the submissive role in which women have accepted and allowed to exist within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that being a woman means being a slave to menstrual cycles, to having to give birth to a children in order to 'fulfill' the primary role of a woman in life

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think that a male was the counterpart of my existence, therefore, seeking the 'counterpart' of myself in order to 'fulfill' my existence as a woman within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women are easily abused, raped and victimized because of being 'weak and vulnerable' and not able to defend themselves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define male's penis as that which 'we don't have' as that which represents 'power, strength' which I perceived and allowed myself to think that made males dominant, strong and controllers

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that a man controls the sexual physical act because of thinking believing and perceiving women as only a 'receptor -receiver' of something that enters and is able to enter as deep, slow, soft, hard as the male desires to do so

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel abused in thought while experiencing sexual act because of the nature of sexual act in itself, as allowing my female human physical body to be penetrated by a male's human physical body within and as the connection vagina - penis that is created while the sex encounter takes place

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I had 'no power' to stop the physical suffering and pain while experiencing menstruation, because of me accepting and allowing this as 'part of menstrual cycle' as something natural that had and must be endured

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define woman as actually being stronger than men because we can endure physical pains and sufferings within menstruation and also while giving birth to a child.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to define the nature of woman as being 'innocent' and being able to be 'fooled' because of the Adam and Eve story by the female being able to be fooled by the snake to eat from the tree of knowledge fruit.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself as the Adam and Eve story to think believe and perceive that women are responsible for fear of death and the manifestation of death within and as this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as the Adam and Eve story to feel 'responsible' for having doomed both males and females to mortality and therefore, being out casted from paradise

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive as the Adam an Eve story, that women are easily deceivable and fooled, therefore being weak while facing 'the evil' represented by the snake and the death that taking the fruit entailed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women existed as the ones that had to 'praise' men for its strength and power and dominance, accepting and allowing women to exist within the submissive, passive role in the 'relationship' between both genres

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that both male and women were punished by having eating off the tree of knowledge therefore being 'cursed and punished' by having to do hard labor as males and experiencing extensive pain in childbirth as females.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that, as females, we define ourselves as 'possible/potential' mothers thinking, believing and perceiving that giving birth to a child is part of the woman's life experience in this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to place women as the 'victims' in society for accepting and allowing women to exist as the 'inferiority' that has been placed and defined as the woman role in this system, this society.

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman had the right to be treated with more 'sensitivity' and 'care' by men because of the idea, belief and perception of men being more 'rough, rude, strong and clumsy’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define men as being clumsy, slow, rough, rude, strong and brutal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from male expressions within this world by the nature of human physical bodies

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that males and females are different from males because of the reproductive features as sex system within the human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that females depend on males and vice versa because of needing to 'reproduce' and create more human beings in existence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women are 'demons' because of taking men into the doom of 'enchantment' and 'romance'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to portray the female human physical body as an object of desire for men to ‘obtain or possess’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the female human physical body as being vulnerable, delicate and sensitive because of apparently having more 'sensitivity' receptors in the skin than men, therefore 'feeling more' than men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the pains that I experience while having the menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that having the period means not being 'desired' by a man to have sexual encounter with

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as that which must experience sexual desires towards the opposite or same sex

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by a man because of having period

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire taking off my matrix in order to stop having to menstruate every single month of my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing the period because that would mean I'm a woman no more because of not being able to reproduce anymore

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the idea of menopause with withering as a woman, losing fertility, therefore losing the definition as ‘woman’ being life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that after menopause, life has no meaning as a woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that having the period is disgusting because of what it entails as the blood running down through the vagina for some days without being able to control or administrate it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I'm controlled by menstruation as I cannot decide when or how to experience it, meaning, I cannot control it in any way whatsoever

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to blame myself for being a woman and having to experience the menstruation cycle without any 'choice' to hide or stop it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive myself as being uncomfortable within my own skin while being in periods

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire having no disturbance, no activity and no bothering in any way while experiencing periods because of considering it a 'sensitive, painful' moment of the month as being a woman while experiencing menstruation

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to long for the moment when menstruation stops, not realizing that this thought keeps me enslaved with a desire or longing for something to happen in the future

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to just breath and be here while experiencing the menstruation cycle, instead existing in the mind allowing myself to pay attention to pain and suffering in body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled and manipulated by the pain and suffering of certain menstruation cycles experienced

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the beginning of menstruation in a female human physical body indicated the end of childhood and the beginning of womanhood

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to 'phases of life' within a human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that females are submissive in their nature because of being 'the weak ones' and therefore, not taking self direction and submitting to the 'strong sex' such as the definition that exists towards males in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women are dependent on their menstruation cycle, therefore not living life here in the moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be preoccupied within the mind when it's about time to experience menstruation cycles instead of breathing and living in the moment as the breath here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever fear being noticed by others that I'm experiencing menstrual pains or menstruation, fear of being ashamed or embarrassed by it

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to fear childbirth pains

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having to endure a natural childbirth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become depressive whenever I experience my menstrual cycle

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever experience anger and frustration at the experience of menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link the idea of menstruation to that of 'wasting a possible life' every month

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think believe and perceive that I am 'wasting life' every time I get menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dominated by the 'biological' clock within women which indicates the ideal times to get pregnant and give birth to a child

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being infertile as a woman with desires to reproduce

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that the moment you get menstruation, you must behave more like a 'lady' than a 'child'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever be and exist within and as repression for being 'the weak sex' the one that 'bleeds every month' therefore, stepping in a lower position than men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever desire 'killing' my own femininity and sexuality in order to be free

I forgive myself, as a Muslim woman, for having accepted and allowed myself to repress myself inhibiting the showing of my body by covering it all completely, and ‘believing’ in the idea that this makes me beautiful

I forgive myself that I as a muslim woman have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I must cover my whole body in order to hide who I am as a woman, my female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear of being attacked by men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone at night in the streets going by groups of men in fear of being attacked, abused or raped

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a woman, to fear remaining the only women in any place where there are only men, thinking believing and perceiving that it is 'dangerous' and I might get 'harmed'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire suppressing and hiding my feminine human physical body in fear of getting verbal abuse towards the look and appearance of my human physical body as female picture presentation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in constant fear towards men while walking on the streets because of them looking at my human physical body with no shame or regret

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to feel as an object, a sex object for men that exists only as a 'bag' as a 'container' as the 'passive role' within and as the sexual encounter with a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that men are but the 'dominators' of women because of their 'active' role within the sexual relationship, therefore men being the ones that are naturally able to 'rape' a woman and not the other way around

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever feel 'powerless' against a perceived 'male strength and dominance'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman, being beaten to death by another man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being submissive in a relationship with a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be enslaved by a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be enslaved by the role of being a woman in society thinking believing and perceiving that I must 'fulfill' those activities in order to be a 'real woman'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define femininity according to the 'length of the hair'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a female human physical body for the organs and the secondary sexual organs it develops while growing up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself according to the manifestation of other women's human physical body or towards the male human physical body

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed by having a female human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to limit self within and as a female human physical body, adjusting its nature to the needs and desires, laws, traditions and impositions of institutions, laws and religions towards the 'image' and 'presentation' of a woman within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive that women are limited and can only go 'so far' because of not being able to 'reach' what apparently only men can

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that women were no good in ‘spatial perception'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe, perceive that woman only care about gossiping with other women

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women require to be with other women in order to talk and 'understand' their woman expression in this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to judge woman that went to the bathroom with other women

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women are media objects, advertising objects in sexual representation (repression) in order to fulfill man's needs and desires of sex and power within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive as a man that a woman is here in order to fulfill men's needs desires and wants within and as the sex construct of this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define women as being 'second' place in humanity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire being 'asexual' in order to not have to define me according to either one of the poles that exist within humanity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive that I have to stick to the rules and roles designed for women within a society

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that 'only men' could do certain tasks which I deemed as 'difficult or requiring physical strength' that females apparently do not own, therefore, limiting myself as my human physical abilities within this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman could only go 'so far' and that there were things that women simply couldn't just 'fulfill' or accomplish

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that there were specific tasks and activities designed and created for both genres existing as human race within this world, therefore, allowing the enslavement within and as a 'role' as woman, or a 'role' as male

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive woman as having to fulfill existence as 'beauty manifestations' within and of this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to submit my existence to fulfill a man's desire to possess a woman

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being with a man in a relationship meant playing the 'sweet beauty' woman in order to fulfill the role and expectations of what a woman is and should be within this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with the idea of having to be 'beautiful' in order to be liked by men

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to judge my human physical body's appearance and face in order to 'fit' into categories of being 'beautiful' to be accepted and liked by men of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman had to be 'beautiful’ and fit' in order to get a man to fulfill herself with

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself as a woman to be enslaved by the 'primordial function' of being a woman as having to give birth to a child and create a family

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being a woman without being a mother is a waste of woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that experiencing menstruation every single month and never having kids is a waste of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to be defined by menstruation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as woman to be defined according to the usual menstrual pains and the suffering that this process entails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever worry and desire stopping menstruation so I wouldn't have to suffer anymore

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice myself in order to fulfill men's ideal woman perception in order to 'fulfill' his desires and needs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I needed to 'enhance' my 'woman features' in order to be liked, accepted, desired and wanted by men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman fear being rejected by men because of 'not being good enough'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman, fearing being continuously checked upon, criticized, judged and watched by men that desire sex and desire fulfilling their sexual images by watching any kind of woman of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever feel disgusted, abused by being the object for men to watch

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to ever desire being the object to watch, to be praised, liked and accepted by men in order to fulfill the role of 'being a woman' in this society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that the more men that liked me, the more 'woman' I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to ever desire fulfilling 'the ideal, perfect image' of what a woman must be within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think believe and perceive that I'm not feminine enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a woman according to the activities and ways of expression that a woman must have within this world

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I needed to enhance myself with make up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman with make up looks more 'beautiful' therefore more desirable and liked by men

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to define my existence according to men's needs and desires of what a woman must be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever think, believe and perceive that women are inferior to men because of 'mental' capacities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think believe and perceive that I must be 'accessible' to men in order to fulfill their dreams and desires therefore, being liked and accepted by men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to show up my female human physical body in order to show what a woman can 'offer' to men in order to have sex and get a relationship, be liked and accepted

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined according to the idea of being a woman, therefore, having to experience sex with a man in order to ‘be a true a woman’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the status of having sex or not having sex yet with a man as a definition of who I am in this society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that being a woman actually gets me to be in a 'comfortable' situation and position within society by getting some ‘benefits and considerations’ as going first or getting seats

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that men have to be 'gentle' towards women in any situation, because 'that's what society tells us to be and do'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I fear being alone with unknown men in a same place because I perceive myself as being inferior, weaker and not being able to defend myself from them

I forgive myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I had to suppress my sexuality and only men were able to explicitly expose their sexual needs and desires

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to fear being portrayed as a witch for the perceived 'sixth sense' ability that women have within this world and was ‘misunderstood’ through a certain period of time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to be feared because of being able to bleed for days and never die of it, therefore men creating the idea of women as being 'abnormal' and 'evil'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women were the ones 'more attached' to the son/daughter because of having carried the child for nine months

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive as a pregnant woman that I am no longer desirable for a man, because I am no longer 'vacant' to procreated

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive as a pregnant woman that men don't desire me anymore for being bearing a child

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being pregnant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the ability of being able to 'get pregnant'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman is superior to man because of her ability to produce milk to feed babies

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman think, believe or perceive that there exists an 'ideal' of what a women should be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that wearing skirt makes me more of a woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman and therefore, being able to wear skirts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I lose my 'femininity' while using pants and short hair

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that short hair is only for men to wear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to ever fear not being 'good enough' for a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire portraying myself as a 'strong woman' in order to change men's idea of woman being submissive and weak

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to submit to extensive exercise, diet, pills, plastic surgeries or any other kind of 'beauty enhancers' in order to be liked, accepted, desired by men to have a relationship and experience sex

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Christian woman to think believe and perceive that I must cover my head to enter church because of hair being the symbol of sensuality and femininity

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must attract men in order to exist in a relationship, therefore, having someone to reproduce and establish with in the system

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to my liking and desire of men within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman's human physical body had to be perfect in order to be liked, accepted and desired by men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I need a man to protect myself, to take care of me, to feel secure by having a 'stronger force' beside me

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to feel more safe while being with a man around people

I forgive myself that I ever accepted and allowed myself to define me according to being someone’s' girlfriend, wife, mother, daughter, and any other role in society that is strictly made and created for women to fulfill or be defined as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to limit myself thinking believing and perceiving that I am limited by only so many roles within society and this world that I am able to fulfill as a woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman as having to 'fulfill' roles and certain 'feminine purposes' in life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that being a woman is something 'special' because of being able to give birth to a child

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that women are able to 'haunt' a male and make them do whatever a woman wants them to do, not realizing that it entails control and the desire of power over someone else

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to reduce men to being sex-driven beings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I must be the 'man's companion' in life, and accepting him to be the 'main character', the one that 'leads' and 'directs'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to being a woman, therefore, getting a 'feminine name' that would distinguish me as a woman within and of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman, therefore having to be more 'delicate and reserved' than men that are allowed to be open, blunt and strong

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that a man is able to be portrayed naked but that a woman had to hide her genitalia within and as old paintings and images through history of human kind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that woman led men to sin, therefore that we had to 'pay' for it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to be portrayed by the roman catholic church as 'first sinners' within and of this world in human history for having lead 'Adam' to sin and therefore taking 'responsibility' for 'the Fall'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define female expression as having to be graceful, delicate, soft, reserved, submissive and 'defense less' therefore accepting the existence of a 'need' for a 'counter part' that would be able to fulfill/complete what a 'woman' is missing/lacking in attributes and features as a human being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a woman as being able to be a prostitute, therefore, judging a woman's use and expression towards sex

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself as a woman to feel having being born in an inferior position in society by defining me according to a female human physical body having to fulfill a female role within it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive as a woman that I must be 'successful' in order to be recognized and admired in a male driven society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive as a woman that I must place the picture perfect presentation towards others in order to be accepted and recognized and be successful in this world

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to having to be 'worthy' and 'of value' because of how we are usually perceived in this world as second degree human beings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to define me according tot he worth and value that is placed to a woman in any kind of social activity or role defined for a woman to fulfill

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman must be 'loved, appreciated' by others in order to take full recognition of myself

I forgive myself as a woman for having accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I had to actually consider measuring my worth and value according to others' ideas, beliefs, perceptions of what a woman must be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to desire being 'admired' by others either males or women because of the development of the role as a woman within this society.

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to feel 'privileged' in society for being a woman because of having physical features that men do not have and that make women 'special' and more accepted within a 'male-driven society'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive myself as a woman and defining me according to the desire of having a baby, to give birth to a child, to create/procreate life of another being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to desire being recognized and appreciated by having accomplished the task of giving birth to a child, being a mother and a wife within and of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to being able to 'be more intuitive' than a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to being able to 'be more perceptive' than a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to 'being more analytical' than men

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to existing in constant worry and concern of how others view and perceive me

I forgive myself as a woman that have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that I am able to endure the pain experienced while menstruation because of the idea that 'I am preparing way' for the final moment when I will bare a baby inside my uterus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that enduring menstruation pains 'it's worth it' because of being able to one day have a baby and ‘become a mother’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive as a woman that menstruation is cool because 'it purifies' and 'cleanses'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that having the menstruation in this life is actually 'worth it' once you get to have a baby out of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that being able to endure pain an suffering while menstruation actually makes you a 'pain resister', so then childbirth wouldn't be so 'painful' as it usually is, because of body being 'used to extreme pains' as uterus' contractions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to fear having a baby by caesarean in section

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to desire having a baby by caesarean in section so I don't have to experience all the pain and suffering that natural childbirth brings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to feel 'special' because of being able to feed your own baby by producing milk in the breasts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think believe and perceive that my role exists within and as the 'act' of giving love to others such as husband, kids as the 'loving female role 'that exists within this world and reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive myself as grateful for being a woman for having the 'duty' 'opportunity' to raise and take care of my own kids

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a 'proud' woman according to being able to give birth and raise kids by my own

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to endure the pain, the hostility and the rejection of males within this society because of 'the way things are'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that being a woman is something I must be proud of

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a woman according to the 'abilities' that males are perceived as not having in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive myself as a woman according to my relationship with other women in my world that take 'women's roles' in society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that the existence of a woman exists according to the existence of a man beside her

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that a woman is only of 'worth and value' once she has kids and is married to a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think believe and perceive that 'losing virginity' means losing purity, losing chastity therefore, accepting and allowing to be rejected by society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that I must lose my virginity in order to fit today's role of woman in society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value and worth to myself as a woman only when another man/person recognizes me as being a 'woman' in this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define a woman as being a 'real woman' whenever she features well proportioned body features such as breasts, waist, hips and bum for a woman to be desired and liked and accepted in this society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to fear of men's power and greed in this world towards having and owning/possessing women sexually as mere objects

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman think believe that it is ok for a man to have many wife’s, but not for a woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to submit to society's will and rules of how a woman must hide herself and her sexuality in order to be a 'good mannered woman' within this world

I forgive myself as a woman that I have accepted and allowed myself to endure pain, molestation, abuse and rape from men because of perceiving that I am not able to stand up and defend myself, and no more allow any kind of abuse towards female expressions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think that our role is, 'by nature', inferior to the role of man within this world, not realizing oneness and equality exists as who we really are

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to stick to traditions, beliefs and perceptions that religions have made up onto women of this world in order to keep them in inferiority towards men in society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think, believe and perceive that we have more 'obligations/responsibilities' to achieve than actual rights

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that there's no way to change the world system in which the woman is portrayed as being inferior to a man

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that because I am a woman, I must allow men to stand up first, because they are ‘stronger' than woman

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman accept the 'control and abuse' imposed to women because of being 'inferior/weak/not good enough' existing in comparison according to the role of males within this world and society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman, must take complete and full responsibility for kids because for having carried them 9 months in the womb, not realizing that I am avoiding males to take equal responsibility as me for having procreated kids together

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman don't have to work and male has to do it all to bring food to the table

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive myself as a woman, therefore, existing in 'disadvantage' of job opportunities within this world to aspire to 'higher positions'

I forgive myself as a woman that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must fight for the right to be equally good/effective/strong as a male role in this society and in this world

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I'm an 'object of worth and value' and therefore, I'm allowed to be exigent in order to get what I want/need/desire as the ego of the woman within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I as a woman have to 'fight/push harder' in order to get that which males get more easily

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to think believe and perceive that I must 'defeat' another man in order to be recognized and accepted and be of worth and value within this society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that giving birth to a child is something that gives 'satisfaction' and 'fulfillment' of the role as a women made to be a mother in this world

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to define me according to the image of a 'goddess' of this world, therefore linking the idea of women to concepts of beauty, perfection, being flawless, delicate, sensitive and powerful' in order to be able to control other women or men within this world

I forgive myself that I as a woman have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I must give the impression of being 'powerful, successful, strong and confident' in order to not be defined as being submissive and powerless in this male-driven society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that this is a male-driven society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to define me according to the role in sexual relationships that I must 'play' in order to give pleasure and satisfaction to the male counterpart

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to submit myself to the idea of being a woman in and of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that taking medication or smoking weed would ease the pain and suffering experienced while having period

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think believe and perceive that man some of these justifications are bullshit, lol

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be worried about other's ideas/beliefs/perceptions of what a woman should be and exist within this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a woman to take the submissive role within a relationship by being 'the one that waits' the one that is there to support the man, instead of existing in a one and equal agreement of equal self support and assistances as one and equals with any other woman or male within this world

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