agosto 30, 2012

137. Who am I within Choosing?

 

Fear: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘want to have it all’ while facing a point of decision between two or more options wherein the fear that emerges is ‘missing out on something’ by choosing one point or the other, instead of realizing that a want, need and desire exist as a mind point that can in fact be grounded and ‘landed’ to transform it into a physical practical and self-aware decision to be, do and live from the starting point of what’s best for all.

When and as I see myself fearing losing ‘the other one’ point as ‘option’ that I believed and perceived myself to have, I stop and I breathe – I realize that such point of possession to create a sense of ‘winning’ one and ‘losing’ the other only exists depending on the point of preference that I have created in my mind. Thus it is to instead change the starting point of who I am within having to ‘choose’ and instead of ‘choosing,’ simply turning the point into an informed decision that I can stand by for eternity.

I realize that the perceived loss is not real as it only exists within my mind, therefore it is to precisely walk the realization that I cannot fear losing something/someone that I cannot ‘own,’ thus it is to simply stop recreating the relationship in my own mind that holds no physical foundation other than thoughts, feelings and emotions when going into a conflict due to ‘fearing’ losing that other choice that only exists at a mind level. Instead I asses the points within the physical reality and stopping judging one or the other as ‘superior’ and ‘inferior’ as that’s only mind-assessing a point, instead of looking at it physically

I commit myself to realize that whenever I have ‘two choices’ and see myself wanting to ‘have it all’ as a point of mind possession to end up ‘winning,’ to see and realize that a point of choice can exist within the consideration of its viability and how plausible it is in this physical reality – as it is also a point to assess within practical terms instead of only viewing it as a point of preference as a ‘choice’ of a positive or a negative outcome, as that limits the point and reduces both options to simple inferior/ superior points as defined within the relationship we have formed with them in our mind, instead of walking it physically.

I see and realize that the first and primary point is walking my self equality and oneness wherein I cannot be defined by having/ not having/ holding one relationship to something/ someone, but instead are physically directed as points of support that I can align myself to without generating a desire and fear about it, but simply making decisions that are based on what is best for myself as all – and that’s the only valid point to take into consideration when making a decision. 

Thought:I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of a point of leaving something/ someone behind/ missing out on something/someone which is placing a point of value/worth in separation of myself, missing out the actuality as the realization of who we are as one and equal wherein there can exist no loss nor gain in any way whatsoever.

when and as I see myself creating a point of conflict because of not wanting to ‘leave’ something/ someone behind in means of opting for the choice/ point that is in fact best for all, I stop and I breathe. I realize that there is no point of gain or loss within making an informed decision that is best for all, as all that I am is in fact here as one and equal and that what I decide to be/ become and support myself with, can stand within such equal and one consideration as I am the one that decides the starting point of  myself within what’s best for all.

In this I can ensure that I in fact assist and support myself within my process, creating a point of actual self-support wherein I do not define ‘who I am’ based on the options/ points that I decide to walk with/ support myself with or dismiss, but instead become actual living-physical decisions of what can work and what cannot work, and in this the mind’s experience is not relevant as a decisive factor to ‘what I choose’  as this ‘choice’ can only exist within the principle of what is best for all in fact –

I commit myself to see realize and understand that a decision made within the consideration of what is best for, all cannot have a point of ‘lack’ in itself, it is to then see the ‘lack’ and sense of ‘dismissing’ as mind-created experiences in order to keep myself within a point of conflict that cannot exist and do not have to exist if there is clarity and certainty within the decisions made within the principle of what’s best for all – thus I realize that any dubitative mode around something, must be looked at what I fear ‘losing,’ then realizing that point of loss as an actual illusion created only in my mind as I cannot in fact ‘own’ something/ someone – it is only a decision to walk in this or that direction within the consideration of what is in fact best for all.

Imagination: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a point of ultimate satisfaction as physical exploration wherein I can get ‘what I want 'and within that, satisfy only a desire in my mind that in fact indicates a point that I have separated myself from – in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself through relationships to options/ choices that generate a point of conflict wherein I am the one that has created the conflict when not considering the point in practicality, but instead approach it at the level of desire/ want and need.

When and as I see myself imagining a point of happiness in relation to ‘having it all/ being able to keep the best of both worlds,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that when walking the points of separation toward one or the other points/ choices, I am in fact able to see what remains as a practical and physical solution, wherein there is no longer a ‘make believe’ reality of ‘what can be’ as hope in my mind, but instead consider the physical practicality of such decisions and how it can in fact work in a long term basis as a living-decision in my life, wherein I ensure that everything and everyone involved, are equally supported within such decision.

I commit myself to walk the realization of how any belief that I had wherein I can always ‘end up winning’ in my world and that everything always ‘turns to my favor’  is a lie – Instead I can practically decide to align any point in my world to a best for all decision wherein I no longer stand as a a relationship to such point of choice/ option but instead, integrate it as part of the decisions that are based on practical terms, instead of playing a Hollywood movie in my mind, fueling mind desires that are not required at all when the point at hand implies Real living decisions.

Backchat: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the backchat ‘but I want to have all options’ as an indication that any point that is sought to be possessed/ owned is in fact that which I have separated myself from, creating an energetic relationship in my mind of want, need and desire  - thus

When and as I see myself thinking ‘But I want it all/ I want to have all options’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that the BUT is already indicating a point of condition and restriction wherein I only Seek that which will give me an ensured point of ‘satisfaction’ in my mind, wherein the physical reality is not being considered. Thus it is to walk within the realization that the choices we make in our lives will determine the who we decide to be in our reality – and in that, only a principle of what’s best for al is what stands the test of time.


I commit myself to stop myself from holding two or more points in my mind as options that I Want and Desire to have/ own for my personal benefit, as it is within these points of desire as the mind that I create unnecessary conflict that I can see and realize are not necessary if I equalize such points to viable and practical solutions wherein I consider what it is that I am in fact willing to be and participate in throughout my life and in my world.  





Physical: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a point of physical strain in my body due to existing as a diatribe in my mind based on seeking to fulfill points that I have separated myself from as desires and finding no way to ‘materialize’ them, as I see and realize that I can instead walk within/ through self forgiveness each relationship formed  to ensure that I am in fact considering the physical reality that is Here as all and everything in which I can decide what I will be/ live and become within opting for one point or another as the decision we make in our lives that will define who we are and will be.

When and as I see myself creating a point of strain at a physical level upon existing in a certain conflict, I stop and I breathe – I realize that a point of conflict that exists within myself as my mind is not taking the points to a physical and practical reality, but only fueling a point of conflict through thinking, backchat and internal conversations. Thus

I commit myself to breathe whenever I see myself wanting to ‘shove away’ thoughts that I consider as ‘not relevant’ and instead walk them through writing, applying self forgiveness to see what it is that I am in fact existing as in every moment and within this, ensure that I do get to know myself as my mind, as this is not about anything or anyone else but myself in such moment as the relationship that I have with myself as my mind. Then, once the point is walked writing, the practical considerations must be given direction to.



Consequence I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not exist here as an absolute clarity of who and what I am and what I am willing to be and become based on the decisions I made – thus

When and as I see myself existing as an experience of inner conflict that manifests at a physical level, it is to investigate my own thoughts, my own immediate backchat, reactions and experiences so that instead of ‘shoving them aside,’ I can support myself to in  fact walk them within and through Self Forgiveness to then see and assess what are the points I am separating myself from as a desire, and instead, direct myself to consider the physical practicality of our living decision.

I realize that all decisions stand from and within the consideration of self-equality and oneness, wherein whatever I choose or not chose does not change ‘who I am,’ as such decision will be based within the consideration of who and what I am as one and equal to the points that I decide to align myself to.

I commit myself to live the realization that any decision I made stands as part of the self-agreement that I decide to give to myself as the realization that that which I will decide to live and stand by, will be the expression of myself as one and equal in its entirety – thus, it is to instead walk a practical physical living-projection to see what is viable, what is plausible and what  are the potential outcomes when opting for certain decisions in our lives.

I realize that the Who I Am within ‘Wanting to Have it All’ is in fact a mind that seeks to satisfy itself with positive experiences and call that ‘a life/ living’ and ‘fulfillment.’ We are already here, and any point we decide to live with and by, stands as a 1+1 addition, wherein one cannot be less or more than one plus one.

 

This is the point wherein Self-Honesty stands as the guiding point wherein all the perceived choices can be actually be taken and considered within the starting point of what is best for all and in that, there is no way I can fool myself, as it is plain to see that any point approached from the starting point of energy, will fall. Thus I direct myself to make decision, direct myself always within the consideration of the physical reality and what I am here to equalize myself to and as within the consideration of what is best for all.

“I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Any Choice that Cause Harm to another Life Form, is NOT FREE.

I commit myself to SHOW that FREE Choice is to Be FREE to NOT ABUSE Life.” – Bernard Poolman*

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agosto 28, 2012

136. Relax and Just Chill: Everything is Just Fine

This world is the result of our knowledge – are we proud of what we have become? No.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in an attempt to ‘live life, ’separated myself into a surrogate player as the entirety of who and what I have become when only playing out defined and preprogrammed patterns that I created in order to sustain myself as the ‘stability’ I believed myself to be, without ever realizing that such stability was only based on knowledge and information that in no way stands one and equal as life, as such knowledge and information can only exist through and as the mind that sucks life out of the physical in order to create such sense of ‘stability’ as the mind, as the personalities that we define ourselves, daring to even create a sense of pride and superiority as such ‘knowledge’ believing ourselves to ‘know it all/ have it all under control’ within particular personalities that in no way can stand the test of time as life.

When and as I see myself playing out a sense of stability and even superiority within the perceived ‘who I am’ as my mind of knowledge and information creating this sense of ‘everything is fine,’ I stop and I breathe –  I realize that I am in fact keeping a very systematic point of self-abuse as ‘stability’ that exists as knowledge and information that I have created as a way to cope with reality, stemming from an actual fear of losing myself As that personality that I have fed and sustained with the very physicality that I embody as my own human physical body.

I realize that everything that I have kept as ‘who I am’ was never real as all the knowledge and information ‘reputation’ is but mere programs that I believed were ‘superior’ to other programs and in that, continuing abusing myself and others as life due to playing and participating within an actual point of self-abuse, wherein Life was nowhere to be found as Knowledge is not life.

I commit myself to stop playing the character of the stability as ‘who I am’ based on knowledge and information of ‘who I am,’ ‘what I’ve been,’ ‘what I’ve done,’ – it is thus to expose how this stability stems from the money belief-system that gives us such sense of security and that we built our personalities around it in order to keep ourselves in a ‘peace of mind’ where everything is fine. Within this, creating a point of support for us to stand one and equal as our mind, as this reality in order to understand why and how an Equal Money System can be the only way in which we can in fact LIVE in this reality, as money as it currently exist is also nothing else but knowledge and information to keep ourselves ‘safe’ from reality that is of actual poverty and abuse.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever hold this ‘stability’ as ‘who I am’ as real, as the ‘who I am in fact’ and believing that because I experienced this certainty of ‘who I am,’ I am in fact here and ‘fine,’ without realizing that the moment that we have to THINK ourselves into ‘being fine and alright’ it is then in fact an indication of us talking to Believe that ‘we are in control, we are stable,’ which is how we exist as the current world system wherein money acts as such thoughts in the head, as the backchat that is ‘sweetly talking’ to us to continue believing that ‘everything is fine’ and that there is no problem at all in the world, without realizing that it is just like placing a movie within our own minds as positive thinking that doesn’t allow us to face the actual fear that we exist as whenever we only seek the positive and to have ‘control’ over ourselves and others, while using knowledge and information to do so.

When and as I see myself talking myself to believing that ‘everything is fine, I am stable,’ I stop and I breathe – I realize that having to talk myself into a positive experience of ‘all is fine’ is in fact a deliberate way to cover up the actual fear experienced in the moment instead of actually breathing to direct myself in the physical reality as the responsibilities, tasks and points that I have to direct myself within.

I realize that I in fact have never been in control of myself as I do not have an idea of how I am creating myself in every moment and how my thoughts have become automated and programmed by me throughout a life that I lived only through seeking happiness, fulfillment, satisfaction, following the feel good energy that I enslaved myself to, becoming ever oblivious to everything and all that was real here on this Earth as the physical reality, but only living within an alternate dimension in my reality, justifying my own stability and ‘alrightness’ with further knowledge and information to make it all ‘just fine.’

I commit myself to expose to myself how within the extreme desire of ‘wanting to have control’ over myself and others, I am in fact fearing others and myself within the realization that we in fact have no control over ourselves and reality at the moment and that everything that we have become is nothing else but puppets of our own programming that we believed ourselves so fervently to be,  wanting to defend such knowledge and information at all cost, even if such cost means the lives of human beings, animals, the Earth itself as what we have denominated ‘resources’ that in no way stand as a point of Self-Support as Life.

Who and what we are as living beings cannot continue as knowledge as it is plain to see that all wars, all disagreements, all fights, all separation stands within a point of knowledge that each one takes ‘pride’ of and as such, become an actual leech to the physicality that is unconditionally allowing us to live, while we transform such life into lethal weapons and bullets to kill and consume each other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how the very existence of ourselves as knowledge and information creates a point of separation by default, as knowledge in itself stands as the elitist-mark for everyone, defining in this world who lives and who dies according to the knowledge  and ‘preparation’ as information to be able to survive in the world, which implies that we’ve built our own prison of knowledge and information that we believed ourselves to be, losing ground of that which is real to glorify that which apparently could make us more than others, and in that, by default accepting inequality as an inherent aspect of humanity, without questioning how such inequality can only exist as a mind that thinks and asses reality in absolute disregard of the one and only value, which is Life itself and that we are all capable and able of equalizing ourselves to, if we make the decision to do so.

When and as I see myself assessing myself, others and this reality through knowledge and information for the purpose of comparing, judging as more or less than – I stop and I breathe – I realize that the very use of knowledge with the purpose of defining something/ someone as more or less than others, is the actual point of abuse that must be exposed in all ways, in order to ensure that we in fact realize  how it is only when and while being here in the physical consideration of each other as equals that we can direct ourselves effectively in our world and that we can in fact work together to create and construct a new way of living wherein knowledge and information is no longer regarded as something ‘more’ than the being themselves, but becomes only a practical point to be used to actually build, create and design a better way to live in Equality.

I realize that as long as we do not realize that everything that has been built upon knowledge and information is a lie and a belief system, we’ll continue recreating the same patterns and habits of the past, wherein words that are separated from physicality become world-rulers, such as money that has become a language in itself.

I commit myself to stop living as the ‘stability’ that knowledge and information in my mind creates, and also stopping creating any good feeling out of having enough money in my pocket to eat every day, as these are the small building blocks of this world-system that stands as the justification and excuse of abusing life on Earth for our own personal benefit. 

Within this, it is to finally understand that there is no way we can sustain a world based on knowledge as this world is the proof that no knowledge has done any equal and one ‘good’ to humanity, and that Life is calling for us to Stop and Forgive ourselves, to then be willing to walk a process of Self-Realization wherein all castles in the air built as knowledge are demolished to from and as such dust, ground ourselves back on Earth, as I see and realize that we have used knowledge to abuse the physical reality – it is thus to use now words to Live them in Equality, to move and support ourselves/others within to see and realize that it is only in an Equal World that we will truly be able to finally Live, instead of sustaining surrogate characters maintaining only a cycle of self-abuse.

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135. ‘The Secret’ CULTivates Narcissists

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the pursuit of happiness as a normal human being’s purpose in life wherein one’s empowerment as money – more than the necessary one enabling relationships, properties, top executive jobs and all sorts of benefits in society - is actually revered and venerated as if it was an actual God that we are praying to and praising, making of money our god – yet we disguise this blatant cult with words like success, fame, fortune, dream life and roles/conditions within society such as nobility, royalty, presidency, top sports players, magnates, riches and ‘influential people’ that can only exist in such titles as an example for billions of human beings that seek to be in such a position as well, without realizing how ludicrous it would be to in fact sustain a life of ‘the rich and famous’ for 7 billion human beings.

Thus, I realize that what is required is an actual wake up call to expose how such ideal ‘happiness’ and ‘well being’ based on the standards of what a rich/ famous person is, is in fact unsustainable and the actual glorification of abuse, as if we were able to in one single moment become aware of how many people have suffered, been killed, abused, chronically suffered through the creation, manufacturing and production of our entire ‘civilization,’ we would probably start regarding wealth and fortune as an actual point of abuse instead of blindly and foolishly praising it in separation of ourselves as life.

When and as I see myself wandering off to the life of the rich and the famous and start wondering how ‘great’ it would be to have all that money – I stop and I breathe - I realize that such images and stories of having all the money are actually systematically conveniently propagated and are specific/ strategic ways to imprint desires, wants and needs within regular slaves/human beings so that we continue working ‘as much as possible’ to someday eventually (in our dreams only) get to such a position of power and fame, glory as all the money that we believe is the actual point of ‘happiness’ in our world.

I commit myself to expose how the lives of the rich and famous are actual strategic points of propaganda to keep capitalism and our current life-style of seeking fame, fortune and glory in place as the ultimate bliss, which is then recognizing the point of abuse it represents to present a life that is in no way LIVING but only consumerism equated to fulfillment unattainable by all human beings equally and that it is thus in fact an insult to present such outrageous fortune while blindly believing that all beings can ‘climb the ladder of success’ toward such fame and fortune within the current monetary system.

I see and realize that it is only through looking at the ‘reality’ of our desires, wants and needs that we become aware of how we have participated in creating desires, wants and needs that in no way represent an actual Living Condition that Supports Life/ living, but that are only make-believe realities as the products and activities that are related to us aspiring to be and become part of ‘the elite’ that we see on TV, that we see on magazines and that we are enthralled with within our current societies wherein media is telling us what to do, what to eat, what to wear, who we should date, what to vote for, what to diss, what to suppress, what to embody, what to think and what Not to think through imprinting fear toward the most basic questions that every human being should ask themselves, such as HOW it is that we have created the current monetary system as a god that is not readily available for all to dignify all beings’ lives?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question the seeKing and Chase-ing of positivity in this world as a point of abuse, due to it being perfectly ‘normal’ for any being to seek self’s own ‘well being’ through asking to an energy/god/saint/the universe for that which could mean happiness/ joy point, which is actually using money as a point of abuse to acquire yet another point that can only be conceded/ given if it is taken from others in fact, which is how the Law of Attraction actually works like.

I realize that the sheer acceptance of only a fraction of human beings existing in this acceptance of their ‘pursuit of happiness’ as an actual living-purpose is what must be exposed as the popular accepted and allowed abuse within humanity, as this is the way that we have made of narcissism an apparent disorder that can be named individual self interest due to the extreme care for one’s own well-being actually existing as a  ‘normal thing,’ in our society, being entertained with all things positive that one can consume in order to ‘feel great’ while 3/4 of the Earth starve to death every single day.

When and as I see myself accepting positivity and positive thinking as a ‘normal thing’ in our reality wherein it’s seen as ‘something ordinary’ that people want to succeed in what they do and what they dedicate their lives to – I stop and I breathe -  I bring myself here to realize that such attitude is actually the building blocks of a delusional world system, wherein any positive experience cannot exist without abusing thousands of beings, which includes everything that we virtually have as a commodity in this world system at the moment, simply because we have not yet become an actual living being that cares for life in equality, but only seeks one’s own benefit at all times, regardless of who has to suffer the consequences.

Thus, I commit myself to expose positivity as an actual abusive thinking pattern that has been blindly accepted, followed and bought within society because of the amount of money it also produces for the world system – thus it is to expose what a closed system of wealth it represents when only a few can aspire to get to/ obtain such point of success wherein education, money, and having at least a middle-class position is what enables you to seek after things like ‘The Secret’ and any other wishful positive thinking, without considering how everything that one asks is in fact manufactured, produced, distributed and sold within a world system wherein Money in itself as the current monetary system is the actual structure of abuse of which there cannot be in any way a possibility to ‘succeed’ without abusing others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the ultimate self-importance and individualism as an actual ‘self-care’ wherein in fact I only cared about ME-me-me and my position within this world system being secured through money as long as My-Needs are fulfilled, without realizing how this apparent ‘self-improvement’ of the individual through wishful thinking, positive attitude and a ‘clear vision to the future’ is nothing but white-light rubbish as words that rub the ego the right way in order to create an imaginary sense of well being, wherein the very backchat/ thoughts in the head as internal conversations become also part of the character that sustains this positive-beingness of only seeking to get the rewards, only seeking to be granted with ‘the most cake,’ granted with the ‘most important position’ in a job, granted with all the money in the world with which we can ‘make our dreams come true,’ never questioning how this ‘may your dreams come true’ attitude represents doing just that: manifesting an imaginary dimension of our minds, using an also imaginary point like money to in fact create a righteous ‘right’ to use the resources of the earth, the people and the entire structure in order to Only satisfy ourselves –

I realize that this makes us ALL Equally Responsible for what is existent in this world, just by the fact that we have all sometime wished something ‘good’ for ourselves while neglecting the rest of the world and its actual situation of absolute lack, famine, violence, abuse and extortion that reality is currently existing as, wherein money became our security veil that will certainly not be sustainable for a long time now.

I commit myself to expose self-improvement as the search for success, positive thinking and positive attitude as the most EVIL tools ever provided to humanity further separate ourselves from one another, creating the ultimate competition to get the jackpot within following ‘The Secret’ that we foolishly accepted as ‘real’ without pondering how it is that people in the Elite would actually allow this point to come-through with such as if it was in any way real – Thus, it is to expose this ‘get rich quick’ lifestyle propaganda as the totalitarianism propaganda hitting human’s buttons that read ‘searching for happiness,’ in order to accept the current monetary system wherein ‘all dreams can come true’ through maintaining and sustaining a system of abuse such as capitalism, wherein the platform to only support/ grant such ‘big prize’ is available for a few only, which means that The Secret as the Law of Attraction is in fact like a light that attracts the moths to their death, as there is no way in which such happiness as ‘all the money, fame, glory’ is able to exist for all within the current configuration of the world-system as money – yet there is another way


The solution stands clear: we must create a world-system wherein Everyone’s Lives can be in fact glorified, dignified and enjoyed through a monetary system that ensures the access to the Earth’s unconditional resources in an equal manner, as that is the actual way in which True Happiness can emerge in this world, where all men regard each other as equals, wherein all beings can finally live and experience the ever longed-for Heaven on Earth that has been broadly promoted, while it is the ultimate Scam in religious and New Age movements with the infamous name of ‘ascension,’ without realizing that such Heaven is no more and that all that is Left is Life on Earth to be equalized through an actual political and economical reform, wherein all that is here of the Earth is given and distributed equally to all beings in it.

This is then the real Law of our Being that must be realized and understood as the Only way in which Our lives can continue existing – thus it is to transform that selfish narcissistic Self-Care/ Self-Importance to an actual SELF that considers/ regards all beings as one and equal.

I commit myself to be the example of how Life can only thrive if living in Equality beginning with ourselves

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agosto 26, 2012

134.‘Gotta be On TOP at All Times’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and see who am I within wanting to ‘secure’ a position on top of others wherein I have deliberately side-viewed/ neglected and ignored the fact that within me wanting to be ‘safe’ within a point of superiority fulfilling my wants, needs and personal desires and creating an entire personality as ‘superior/ greater/ confident/ powerful’ being, I am in fact existing as the absolute fear to lose that which I have defined myself to Only be, such as that point which makes me feel powerful and superior – being it money, relationships, knowledge – which is in fact everything that we have separated ourselves from, getting ourselves to the extent of fearing losing such point outside of ourselves because it is all that we have defined ourselves to be.

I realize that within the current configuration of the world as capitalism, we have abdicated our self-worth and self acceptance to whether we are ‘worthy’ at the eyes of the world-system to make money, to get sex, to be ‘successful’ and as such learning that it is only through these means that we can in fact be ‘great’ and ‘fulfilled’ in our living, which is an absolute lie as the story that’s never told is how for some to be successful and have all the money and all the successful-lifestyle, there must be those that invariably must be the losers, the slaves that work to sustain the earthly-heavenly experience that can only exist as the abusive illusion that money has enabled as a possibility – and our reality today – while justifying those that are abused as ‘the losers’ as inept, incapable, not good enough, not worthy enough to have equal opportunities to also aspire to get a life-worth-living, which is absolutely unacceptable.

When and as I see myself wanting to secure my position in an apparent point of stability within money, relationships as the entire suit of success – I stop and I breathe – I rather look at everything and everyone that must be ‘underneath’ me in this hierarchical world system in order for me to apparently ‘remain’ in such a position that is only held by money and relationships in this world system, wherein all that I have complied myself to be is the outflow of mind-indoctrination to be and become the next ‘big hit’ in my own mind in comparison to others, thus I direct myself to see and consider the lives of those that must be abused, that must be deliberately ‘left behind’ and below in order for me to be on top, to get ahead everyone else as ‘my goal in life’ and ‘My fulfillment.’

I commit myself to expose any dream of being successful and the ultimate powerful person as the actual point of self-abuse that is accepted and allowed currently in this world as a form of justifying the inequality that is necessary to keep an unequal system running making such points of ‘success’ and ‘loss’ possible. I realize that there can be no actual success if inequality exists, if abuse exists thus

I commit myself to expose the current accepted and allowed conception of ‘success’ as a nice way to cover up a deliberate form of abuse toward others that are seen a ‘less than’ and ‘unworthy’ so that only a handful can be seen as worthy, as powerful and successful.

“Interesting, that: the more money one have, the more time, effort and attention one can spend in/as one’s Mind in manipulating one’s physical-body and physical-reality to suit one’s personal wants, needs and desires in standing in the limelight within/as one’s own Life/World. That this is what each human being in this world in our relationship with Money, want, need and desire – the riches of the Earth/this World as what the consumerism giant provide.” – Sunette Spies*

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge within thinking of myself as someone greater, superior, powerful without even taking a look at ‘who am I’ within wanting to be a powerful person Above others and how this desire to be ‘on top’ of others is in fact the very mechanism in which this current society and capitalist system is founded upon.

I realize that I had been indoctrinated as a child to always seek to be ‘on top’ and remain ‘untouchable’ within such position as that would guarantee my ‘happiness,’ which is how I allowed myself to create an absolute fortress around me as a character to maintain my own ‘position’ secured in my world as ‘the best/ the greatest/ the most intelligent one,’ which supports the entire polarization of our reality wherein for some to be winners, others have to stand and be regarded as the losers.

When and as I see myself indulging into thoughts of me being the greatest and scheming ways to remain in such alleged position in my world, I stop and I breathe – I direct myself to in such moment realize to what extent I am separating myself from my physical body, considering myself as a physical being that cannot in any way be ‘more’ than other bodies as flesh and bones – thus

I commit myself to expose the superiority/ vanity/ egotistical thoughts that support the narcissist character wherein I stand as ‘the king of the world’ in my reality, through my own backchat and internal conversations – thus It is to realize how such seemingly ‘innocent’ thoughts become in fact the building blocks of who we are as the illusion of the character that believes itself to be ‘more’ than others, simply to fulfill one single belief of ‘power and control’ over others, which is in fact what must be exposed as the point of abuse and illusion as there can be no power in existence other than the physical that we have separated ourselves from, while existing only as a mind that wants to be and become ‘greater’ than others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how when I am busy in my mind scheming and participating in thoughts, internal conversations and backchat finding ways to remain on the top, to get to the top, to ‘beat’ another in any form of rivalry or competition that I have created in my mind, without realizing how this is what further contributes to the inequality in this world wherein who we are has been diminished to values/ worth and perceptions of who we are within a system wherein Money as the ultimate power dictates ‘who’s who in the zoo’

Thus, I realize that whenever I participate in thoughts and dreams of getting to be the greatest and the most ‘powerful,’ I am in fact saying that I am willing to abuse, manipulate and corrupt myself and others in order to make ‘MY dream come true’ and secure ‘MY place’ in this world as being the most powerful, greatest being, which is an absolute demonstration of vanity wherein we don’t want to actually look at and realize who and what we are directly and indirectly abusing with us keeping such desires to be and become ‘more’ in our minds.

When and as I see myself scheming ways to get ‘on top’ of others in the ultimate position of power as ‘success’  -- I stop and I breathe – I direct myself to instead see how I am practically able to support myself to be an example of how I can stand in and as equality and oneness which is the point that will certainly then enable everyone to be equally supported, wherein All can have the same ability to have a dignified and ‘successful’ living wherein success is no longer defined by being ‘more’ than others or ‘beating’ others in a race, but a general well being that will be available for all once that we establish a living-system of Equality such as the Equal Money System wherein we will learn how to honor each others as equals and any desire to be ‘more’ than others, will be treated with professional support and assistance to re-align the being’s life to that which is best for all.

I commit myself to thus consider each and every single being whenever I am only thinking about ‘MY own success, MY own desires, MY own dreams of getting to a successful point in my world’ as I see and realize that it is only through re-aligning any point of personal interest to the interest of what’s best for ALL that I am able to then expand my perspective and realize the abuse that stems from chasing after my personal-interests and pleasure/ satisfaction creates when being created at the expense of other beings in inequality.

“I commit myself to show how/why this calls for the re-education of the Human Being that is in fact very uneducated regarding the principles of Life and Living, very ‘intelligent’ regarding how to manipulate, deceive, remain ignorant of reality, and abuse for the sake of survival and money, but actual COMMON SENSE as having the sense, the ability to SEE and SENSE with and as that which is COMMON, EQUAL, ONE as this physical existence and us all within and as it: do not exist.” –Sunette Spies

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to immediately react in jealousy the moment that I see someone ‘climbing up to MY spot’ within the perceived powerful successful position, wherein I then justify all means and ways to ensure that such individual/s do Not make it on top  -and as such, believing that creating a competition and definite rivalry is the way to ‘reclaim my place’ which is nothing else but actual fear of losing the privileges and ‘secured’ position of superiority.

I realize that in this current world system competition is reinforced and promoted as a way to ‘become better’ every time as it’s been proven how individuals work ‘better’ when under pressure and/or threat to ‘lose their jobs/ position’ in a particular scenario within this world system – thus ensuring that ‘competition’ remains as the method of excellence to ensure that people remain doing ‘the best they can’ and giving all their effort to it simply because of not wanting others to take their position and become ‘more’ than them.

When and as I see myself going into jealousy when and as perceiving that someone is going to ‘get my place,’ I stop and I breathe – I direct myself to simply remain constant and consistent in my application wherein I realize that playing the competition game in my mind only adds further stress as the fear of loss toward such position that only exists as a concept of superiority in my mind. Furthermore I realize that accepting a point of competition as ‘real’ implies that I am in fact giving into a form of fear wherein there must be a winner and a loser, thus moving only through and as the starting point of Fear instead of it being a clear self directive decision to move.

I commit myself to expose all forms of hierarchy as an atrocity against life and exposing it as the actual carrot on the stick mechanism to keep everyone busy ‘climbing the ladder of success’ all the time, without realizing who and what we are damaging in such moments, which is ourselves and the life that we abuse to remain in our powerful/ almighty bubbles of money that must burst in order to realize the reality that is here covered up with the illusion of ‘control’ that we have created through and as our current monetary system.

I realize how the only real value of Life is Life itself and that we can instead support each other to work together and learn how to coexist and co-create within the starting point of oneness and equality as life, as this is the only way wherein everyone can Win equally, because there will be no more abuse in the name of maintaining a polarized society of abuse.

I commit myself to spot myself whenever I see me wanting to be ‘On Top’ and ‘The Most Successful’ and See the abuse and exploitation that the mere existence of such ‘positions’ within the world system represent, as there is no ability to be ‘successful’ in this world at the moment without abusing others to create such perception of power and control that exists as an actual fear of realizing that we are not in fact of control of ourselves as our physical, as our minds, as the environment which already indicates the level of limitation and delusion that exists as this feeble concept of ‘superiority’ masking an absolute fear to in fact be apparently ‘nothing else’ yet nothing more than an equal and one part of the whole that has been subdued to a set of energetic fixes that we are here to Stop and finally realize what’s ‘behind’ these experiences as an actual physical reality that can certainly be ordered, managed and directed to be beneficial for all beings equally. 

“Interesting, that even within the World System itself, what is promoted is the Mind, thought, consciousness, imagination, visualization, energy…everything of that which completely separate self from reality, the physical, that is real, here. The World System promoting human beings in the Mind to such an extent that we’d focus on things the Mind feed us, the World System feed us – consumerism, images, fantasies; but would not give a moment’s consideration to the countless of human beings in PHYSICAL REALITY suffering from starvation, famine, war, poverty – keeping us preoccupied in the Mind, within our own MINDS to not see the reality of what we’re creating as this world/earth for a select minority of Humanity to finance and substantiate their Hollywood Minds.

And so, changing the human, from self-interest as what we’ve done with how we created ourselves in/as the Mind to serve only our own wants, needs and desires and so in fact change ourselves/our living to what is/will be BEST FOR ALL.” 

Sunette Spies*

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agosto 25, 2012

133. ‘I Know More than Everyone Else’

Continuing with 132. EgoMania: Narcissism

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the backchat ‘I know more than everyone else’ as a way to always create an idea of myself being special, unique and having this sense of self-importance due to me believing that ‘no one else is getting this but me/ I am the only one that is able to understand this to the T’ –

I realize that this is nothing else but a knowledgeable ego that in no way considers life in equality, but only a mind that foams itself into superiority.

When and as I see myself believing that ‘I am the only one getting this/ I bet no one else is understanding this as I do’ – I Stop and I breathe – I realize that this is the narcissist character kicking which implies that I must investigate the actual point of fearing not getting it and/or being perceived as ‘not understanding it,’ which is a blow for one’s ego  - thus

I commit myself to stop all backchat related to making myself ‘more’ than others in terms of knowing better/ understanding everything to the T and instead, assist and support myself to ensure that I can in fact place into practical living application that which I have understood in order to Live the words that I’ve read, and not only store them for the sake of growing my own database of useless knowledge and information seen as power.

Also read: 71. Knowledge is $ Power

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to carry myself with a flair of ‘grandiosity’ as I walk past other being wherein I believe myself to be superior to them in my mind, without realizing how this general tense presentation and self-portrayal of invincibility, strength and toughness is in fact stemming from an actual fear of being violated, abused, threatened or directly attacked by others

Thus I realize that the way that I carry myself as a portrayal of strength, confidence and security is in fact a cover-up of an actual fear toward others that I have believed is ‘who I am,’ as a constant thought in my mind directed toward other human beings, without realizing to what extent I had built a shield/ defense-mode presenting myself as secure, strong and invincible in my mind just because of fearing the actual self-experience of me as vulnerable, insecure and feeble.

When and as I see myself walking down the street with a stance of toughness, invincibility and ‘strength’ – I stop and I breathe – I realize that I am becoming the embodiment of the cover up the fears that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, such as fearing being judged/ criticized or diminished in another’s mind.

I commit myself to become aware of how I experience myself in the presence of unknown people in the streets and how I walk past them in order to not create any cover-up experience to the actual fears that may exist in such moments, thus I instead direct myself to investigate what are the fears toward unknown people that I still hold and that I have embodied thus far, so that who am I within and without is the living realization of being in fact one and equal to my mind wherein there are no more judgments in my mind, but only physical considerations to equalize ourselves as a worlds system that regards everyone’s right to be supported, so that no more fears of being abused for having/being something/ someone that others desire to have/ be like are existent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ever judge other beings as clumsy and inaccurate within my mind, as a way to portray myself by default as superior in my mind and having this special ability to point flaws in others, without realizing that I was in fact only judging myself and as such becoming my own mirror that I didn’t’ want to face as I was always only talking to myself when judging ‘another.’

When and as I see myself judging others in the name of my own superiority in the mind wherein I believe I am ‘always right’ in relation to how I judge other beings in my reality, I stop and I breathe – I realize I can only be speaking about myself as judgments, and that in such moments, I am in fact in no way supporting myself or another to live here as the physical moment, but in fact go into an alternate reality in my mind wherein I see myself as superior when compared to another being, which is the foundation of inequality in this world – thus

I commit myself to stop judging anyone in my mind and instead of Thinking about someone’s activities/ words/ thoughts, I direct myself to participate and interact in the moment with them, wherein if there is a point of support that I can provide, I can do so as long as the context allows it. This means, that I turn the point of judgment into a point of support for another – and if the point is not relevant in the moment, I realize that it is not My Duty to make it ‘visible’ as not all social interaction enable such point of feedback and communication toward one another – and this is part of the practical application consideration at the moment within our process

Also read: Day 28: I'm Always Right « MarlenLife's Blog

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to associate/ hang out with equally perceived ‘special/superior people’ wherein I can then feel ‘secure’ that my equally-special self-belief of ‘who I am’ is protected, as within this character/role of self-importance one is seeking to be equally recognized and praised as a participant within other relationships that stand in an equal position – which is how this world system operates in terms of relationships that create the necessary reputation to make enough money through joining forces to do so.

When and as I see myself only wanting to relate to people that in my world are important and/or greatly recognized in order to keep my own ‘profile’ safe and secured, I stop and I breathe – I realize that this is a desire to preserve the same elitist mechanisms that we have fed and fueled in order to only care about ‘how we look/ how others see us’ within the consideration of being ‘special/ cool’ by association, as a desire of being admired/ recognized/ praised and imitated  simply because we haven’ yet given ourselves that unconditional support as a living-recognition of each other as living flesh equals.

I realize how the networks of ‘favoritism’ between people have become the pillars of the current elitist mechanisms in which the world functions/ works, wherein one seeks to be equally admired/ recognized ‘by association,’ which is still wanting to exist only as this ‘valuable ego’ that exists within another hierarchical process of ‘valuing ego’ instead of actually supporting ourselves to treat each other as equals.

I realize that money is actually the key factor for any so-called ‘narcissist’ to play around such ‘power games,’ due to how we have become used to having a polarized society by association, by arbitrary preferences and conditions that we impose onto ourselves for the sake of ending up looking being perceived as special, unique and powerful which in this world translates to having a superior position of money in this world system I order to only ‘get the best’ based on inequality. 

I commit myself to stop the social associations in order to empower ourselves as egos and instead, support all associations and social relationships that will enable us to expand our point of influence in the world to establish networks of support, wherein we can in fact stand in directive positions to implement a world system based in equality, wherein no more elitist associations will be required in order to ‘make it’ in this world, but where everyone will be equally endowed with a living-support from birth to death, which is how it will be in the Equal Money System.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always be seeking for recognition, validation and as such linking this point to ‘acceptance’ of others toward myself, wherein I learned that I only would be ‘worthy’ if I would do something/be someone that could be ‘more’ than the rest in the hierarchical scheme of how we exist in society wherein those that have the most money, stand as the most special/ unique ones and powerful, and those that have little to no money at all stand as inferior/ unimportant and replaceable – thus

I realize that every point of deliberate interaction with perceived ‘superior beings’ in particular was a way to create a positive association and with that, generating a positive experience created only in my mind imposed onto the actual physicality wherein no favoritism or convenient alliances are required if we all agree to support each others as equals.

When and as I see myself seeking to be recognized by others by association with so-called ‘special people’ or through becoming something that is perceived as ‘worthy’ such as having a lot of money in this world system, I stop and I breathe – I realize that it is in this very dream of superiority that we re-create the same polarized system of inequality, wherein who we are is diminished to a single more than/ less than stance with no disposition to create a world of equals – thus

I commit myself to establish a world system wherein one will not require to create an entire backchat personality of seeking to be ‘great’ all the time, as there will be no other way to be ‘more’ than others than in a delusional state of a mind that seeks to impose any form of ‘superiority’ as an attitude toward others, which will become a single indication of such people getting specialized treatment to see where the point of self-separation and inequality exists, as there will be no actual need/ requirement to want ‘more’ than others when all are equally supported from birth to death, such as how it will be in the Equal Money System.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my thoughts, words and deeds to be immediately accepted as alright, as favorable by all, and everyone agreeing with me – and if such point of agreement is not reached right away, I go into a defensive mode wherein I see a point of discrepancy as an ‘anomaly’ within my plans, which is how hostility ensues when expecting everyone to always comply to what is being shared/ shown as ‘my words’ and ‘my perspective,’ taking an authoritative position and ego-position as words, instead of realizing words as the expression of self in equality.

I realize that expecting always everyone agreeing with me has become and automated experience that I must stop myself from participating in, and instead using that point of discrepancy to assist and support all to consider another’s perspective which is actually always supporting and enriching within a particular point that is being worked with in the moment.

When and as I see myself expecting everyone to agree with me from the starting point of seeing ‘MY’ point of view as ‘The’ point of view that is right, that should be by all means implemented  –I stop and I breathe. I realize that remaining here as breath while interacting with others is the way to stop any reactions to compliance and/or ‘opposition’ toward one’s perspective.

I commit myself to be and become aware of who I am within the words that I speak when presenting a solution toward others to be implemented and voted upon, wherein I ensure that I am in fact considering what’s best for all and not only that which will make me look like a ‘winner’ and a ‘know-it-all’ with no other practical purpose for an actual implementation that is self-supportive.

This is how when and while we are interacting with others and we communicate a perspective or point of view upon a particular point of action/ topic, it is to ensure that words are really expressed in means of taking them into living action and not just to glorify one’s intellectual ego that serves nothing and no one other than the mind that thinks itself to be ‘more’ than others for saying so.

This is how we can walk the correction of knowledge and information as a point of superiority into an actual living-consideration that can be implemented to support all beings equally.

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